Imperfectly Perfect

Like a Moth Drawn to a Flame

why is it so dark?

where am i? My questions were soon answered when i heard a voice that I haven't heard for so long

"Honey, its time to go!"she yelled as she picked up the car keys.

Tears of happiness started glistening my  eyes as I saw the woman that was standing infront of me.Her radiant smile that always lights up the surrounding.My heart clenched at the sight infront of me.

That woman was my mom

As soon as i started to walk towards her i heard a sweet melodical again

"Alisha hurry up! It was you who begged us to go to that concert and now you are going to br late.I don't know why we are allowing you to go that concert in the first place" she exclaimed

I smiled as I saw her continue to rant,which was soon stopped when a a huge booming laughter came from behind her.

"Dear,you are ranting again"my father said as he wrapped his arms around my mother.

My mother was a stubborn,bold and uptight whereas my dad was the complete opposite,.He was the silent,easy going type.He was the ying to her yang and vice versa.They weren the world to me.

I ran towards them to hug them,the two people i treasure the most in this entire world but I went right past through them.My heart dropped as reality started to seep in my mind.

My world came crashing down as i realized that this is a dream,to be more precise a memory,that I'm trying to run away for so long but it still continues to haunt me.

Suddenly the image of us being a happy and complete family shifts into another place.We were in the car and saw that my dad was going to take a turn,a turn that will change our entire lives,I wanted to warn them,that happy family to stop but no sound seemed to come out of my mouth.

I tried to move but I was paralysed.My eyes were full of horror as I saw te dreaded truck charging toward us like a bull.I watched the scene unfold.I heard the blood curdling screams of my parents I saw the sixteen year old me crying and screaming helplessly.I was helpless then as I am now.All i saw was blood,it was everywhere.

My whole life went upside down that fateful day.I saw the young me crawl to my parents and tried too help them but alas nothing helped.i was forced ton watch my parents bleed to death and no matter how much i begged no one was willing to help.I still remember their burned skin,there limbs twisted in away that was not normal but still they kept smiling to comfort me.

My already broken heart was once agin shaterred into million pieces.

It was my fault.

People started to stare and point at me.They started to gather around me and started chanting

"It's your fault" 

"You should die instead"

My cries and pleas were drowned by their chanting.Suddenly my parents' skull twisted as they saw me with their life less eyes.They started to slowly wrap their arms around my neck and started whispering.

''you should have died,it's all your fault" and they were right.

I don't deserve to live,I thought as they started to  squeeze my neck tighter and tighter.

When i thought i was going to die I heard a voice,a voice that made me curious and want to chase.I started to chase after the unknown voice.It led me to a door,I didn't know what was behind that door but i knew that the owner of the voice is behind this door and it was voice that made me drawn to it like a moth a drawn to a flame.

And with that determination i opened the door .