I'm sorry I didn't update for ages but yeah this is a small part I did and well this one is related to me so yeah enjoy.....
Its almost been 5 years since I lost him but it feels like it was only yesterday we were holding hands having the time of our lives with you being the centre of my attention.I can still remember the conversations we had it seems like they will always be carved into my brain.You were not the most handsome man ive ever seen but you were close enough. I could not explain these feeling arise whenever someone mentions his name.I feel elated yet anguished powerful yet so defeated ....We were naïve and young back then..I thought it was a one time thin,that after a few days give or take I will forget about you.People said its not love,just infatuation....but what about now ?
I don't think it was his looks that captured my attention,I was not that shallow,it was something else.Something more.I was not the most beautiful person and definitely not the most social,Iwas often picked on but you seemed to not care.You treated me like a normal human beig and for that I would always be grateful for.I know you felt thr same way I did or atleast I hope so...I knew you would eventually leave and I would leave too but those 14 days turned my world upside down.You added more texture and complexity in my life.You were my trigger.
We haven't talk since that fateful day and yet my feelings stayed the same.I wish I could meet you but I think the fates are against us.I tried to move on but one way or another it always lead to you.I then began to hate you inorder to control the damage that was already done to my heart.I wanted someone to pick up those broken pieces but that day is yet to some.I thought I forgot about you,I became numb.
But why does it hurt so much as I stare at the picture with you and some girl wrapped around you....
It was as if the memories I had locked and buried inside me for years slammed open and flooded my body with feelings that I wished that I would never feel again.It was sudden and quick.It felt like someone stabbed me in the heart.
I'm sorry but I think I am still helplessly and hopelessly in love with you.
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Imperfectly Perfect
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