Chase Me

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Where was I?

Everything seemed dull and lifeless. I looked down but I couldn't see myself. I felt myself extend my arms but I could only see a faint shadow. Everything was a blur and I couldn't tell if I was alive or dead. I felt comatose but heard my heart beating through where my chest should be.

I wandered around looking for something and nothing all at once. I wandered for what seemed like a lifetime and I was getting exhausted. After a while, I started to hear voices that haunted me. Each time I would turn around they would lose clarity.

I've concluded that I was dead and this was my version of hell. My legs ached but I couldn't stop. I kept going as if I was being pulled in different directions. As if something was at the end of the neverending trail waiting for me.

I tried to think of how I ended up here but my mind was blank. I couldn't feel myself but I felt everything.

My heart started racing as my feet slowed down. I felt a presence next to me but I couldn't see them. There was a familiarity to them but I couldn't put my finger on it. I reached out and touched into the space where I felt it and my hand instantly burned. The pain was excruciating, I tried screaming but no sounds came. I felt the presence pull at me causing the burning sensation to spread and take over my body.

I closed my eyes, accepting my faith. Everything I've done with my life means I must have deserved this torture. Suddenly the pain subsided and I fell to my knees. I opened my eyes and for the first time, I was able to see myself. No longer were things dull and lifeless, I was almost blinded by the bright light but was protected by the figure that stood in front of me.

Their hand reached out for mine and pulled me up. Being this close to them gave me energy and strength that I was lacking a few moments ago. I reached out and touched their face scared they would disappear leaving me in the void once more.

I heard my name being called by them but their mouth didn't move. "Yes?" I called out.

"Do you love me?" They asked out loud this time. I looked at the woman who shielded me from the light. She was dressed in a long strapless black dress which emphasized her figure. Her voice is the one that haunted me all those years. The one I searched for but could never find.

"Yes"

She smiled and I found myself smiling back. Her fingers found their way to my lips. Her fingertips were stained red and I could taste the distinct metallic taste of blood as I licked my lips.

"Would you trade your life for mine?" She kissed me, transferring whatever power she had in her to me. I knew it was her from the beginning but this kiss felt too familiar for me to mistake her for someone else. She was the only one who could save me from my hell.

'Only if you tell me you love me and even if you didn't I still would' I thought. She smiled against my lips as if she heard me.

Unexpectidently our surroundings started to change once again. It was no longer bright but not dull and lifeless. There was a balance somehow. Our lips were still locked together and I held onto her fearing she would go.

"I love you Alteo" she communicated internally. We broke away from the kiss and I looked around. We were back at the beginning. In my hell but I could see clearly. I looked down and saw that we were both standing in a pool of blood. She reached down and reached for a knife that was hidden in the dissipating pool.

Before I could stop her, she aimed it at her heart and stabbed herself. I screamed and this time around I could hear myself, louder than ever. As if she was screaming with me.

"I love you more than I love myself" was the last thing I heard before pulling the knife from her chest and pushing it into my own.

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I woke up covered in sweat and my heart beating out of my ribcage. What the fuck was that dream?

Panic started to take over and I needed to make sure she was okay. I picked up the phone and dialled her. The phone rang three times before she picked up.

"Alteo?" she asked, her voice still heavy with sleep.

"Krystal, baby, please forgive me, I'm sorry for leaving the way I did earlier, tell me you're okay love" I pleaded. I didn't recognize my own voice.

"Alteo, slow down, I'm okay, it's okay" She said reassuring me.

"Promise me you're okay baby" I begged her.

"I'm okay Alteo, I promise, I miss you, I want you here, when will you be back?" my heart ached knowing I created this distance between us.

"In two day love"

"Promise me you'll be back, no later than 2 days Alteo"

"Two days Krystal, I promise......I love you" I confessed in a whisper, gripping the phone tighter wishing it would make me closer to her.

"I-I"

"It's okay love" I laughed, I knew she was not ready to admit it as yet, "get some more sleep, I just needed to hear your voice and apologize"

"Okay," she said yawning then hung up.

Well. Day 1 begins now.