Pray We Outlive the Red Roses

ok...

I'm not okay...

and although I can't bring myself to physically say it,

I can at least type

I'm not okay...

I feel like I'm not enough,

like I'm not doing enough,

like I'm nothing but a burden,

like everything for me is uncertain,

and lately I've thinking about going to see them pearly gates,

maybe then everyone I love will be okay,

and I won't just be taking up space,

I'm trying,

I'm doing all I can,

because weakness and emotion can't be shown while being a man,

maybe I'm not enough,

and this is all I got,

maybe I am a burden,

and my heart should stop,

one day at a time is how its going,

so don't ask if I'm okay,

cause what will you do when I'm not...?