what i don't tell anyone- not even myself

detached~ futile

Sometimes I want to erase my existence

just disappear from this demanding world

cut all ties and no longer stay in touch

with the goings-on,

since no one bothers the same for me anyway,

in this ever-changing "accepted" reality.

I want to be detached, unrecognized, unliable

unchain myself from

putting up with expectations

often beyond my ability

I don't want to go on

just want it to stop

to pause and contemplate.

Take a moment to meet myself where I'm at

instead of where I'm expected

Do I even wanna be here?

Do I even wanna do this?

What is it that I really want?

©Casey Twix