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Chapter 2

Lucifer's POV

I immediately got up from my bed when I heard a knock on my door. I open it up and see Alastor looking like he hasn't slept in days. His eye bags were even darker now and his smile was very small. He looked so exhausted from everything and everyone. He was even swaying a bit.

"Hey Al,you ok?" I ask him. Worry filled my voice. He only nodded. That made me worry even more about him. I then grabbed his hand softly and pulled him in the room. I close and lock the door and then I turn around and walk Alastor to the bed. I sit him down next to me. "Are you ok? You look exhausted." I say worriedly. "Oh I'm fine dear. Nothing to worry about! I'm just a bit tired but it's no big deal no need to worry!".

"What did you need Lucifer?" He says to me. I look him in the eyes and his eyes sparkle a bit. His eyes look so beautiful. "Lucifer?" I snap out of it and stammer. " Oh U-Uh right. I wanted to tell you what everyone was saying at breakfast." I was going to tell him but to think of it I didn't see him eat with us at lunch or dinner.

"But before I tell you about that,you weren't at lunch or dinner. The only time I saw you is when you cooked the food. Did you eat today at all?" I say. He laughed at what I said. "Of course I did! I had big ones since I didn't eat breakfast. I had lunch and dinner in my room because I didn't want to bother you all. I didn't mean to worry you." I look him up and down.

He looks like he hasn't ate in days. His cheekbones were even showing a bit. Much enough to notice from a distance. "I don't think I should tell you now." I said. I don't want him to think the hotel crew doesn't care about him but they really don't. I was interrupted out of my thoughts by Al laughing again. "Oh dear I already know what they said about me. They are really loud."

My heart sunk. He knew that I called him an entitled prick. I didn't mean it at all! I just didn't want them to get any suspicions about us dating! Oh my gosh I feel so bad. "Im so sorry for calling you an entitled prick. I didn't mean it at all." He smiled at me.

"I know you didn't love. It's no big deal. I understand you were trying to stop them from having a suspicions of us." He puts his hand on my cheek and rubs it gently as I lean into his hand. I look at him and he had that beautiful sparkle in his eye. Those eyes were one of the reasons why I feel I love with him. "Still though,I'm sorry. You are nothing like that at all. You are the most loving kind understandable person I could've ever known. I love you so much."

He smiled at me and kissed my forehead. "I love you too chéri." I smile softly at him as I grab his hand and kiss the back of it. "Go ahead and go to bed love. I will see you in the morning." I tell him. He nods and kisses me on the lips and then goes toward the door and leaves. I smile and get under the blankets and go to sleep smiling.

Alastor POV

I leave Luci's room and walk back to my room. When I open the door I almost collapse from exhaustion. I close the door as take off my jacket as I walk to the bathroom. I open the bathroom door and close from behind. I then look at myself. 'What a disappointment I am. I can't even do a simple list of work and I have Lucifer worrying about me. He had other stuff to worry about that's much more important than me. Vaggie is right I am a shithead. I do nothing while they do everything. What is wrong with me? I'm a monster'.

My hands gripped harder around the sink and I then go in the cabinet. I found it. The Razor Blade. I take off my shirt and I put the blade against my skin and do deep cuts. I cut all the way to my elbow on both arms. I did deep cuts so I was bleeding heavy on my arms. It was really hard to stay awake and bandage myself up.

I was grab my night pant and put them on. I was too tired to even put on my night shirt. I then go to my mirror that was against the wall. I stand in front of it and I observe my body.

'Look at you,so fat and ugly. How can you even fit your clothes? You eat so much and so fast like you never ate anything. Fatty. You need to stop eating for a long time. Stick 2 fingers down your throat. Go force yourself to go throw up. You should do that everyday.'

I look at the bathroom then at my body. I go slowly go back to the bathroom and I open the door. I kneel down at the toilet and I stick down 2 fingers down my throat. I gag and throw up. I force myself to throw up for 20 minutes. I flush the toilet and I try to get up but I fell back down. I use the edge of the sink for support so that I could stand up.

I wash my hands and I try to open the door but I miss and fall on the door and hit my head,only making my head spin faster and hurt much more. I push myself off the door and open it. I trip over my feet and fall on my bed. I don't even try to move and I just fall asleep like that.

I'm so stressed out. Vaggie keeps piling more and more work on me and it's so exhausting. Lucifer is getting worried but I don't want to drag him into this mess. Everyone keeps talking about me and thinks I'm a heartless person. The only people that actually care is Niffty and Lucifer.I slowly fall asleep hoping for a calm nights rest.

-Nightmare-
John had just came back home from work. He was mad and angry as always. Angelica made dinner nice and hot but by the time John came home his food was cold. "ANGELICA!! WHY ISN'T MY FOOD WARM!?" He screamed. "I-Im sorry John. I can heat up your food now. Angelica went to grab his plate but Father stopped her and pushed her down unto the floor. He punched her many times. Alastor then came down because of all the commotion he heard.

When he went down he saw Angelica getting beat by John. (Btw Alastor is 15) "FATHER GET OFF OF HER!" Alastor pushed John off of Angelica and he fell to the ground. Alastor helped his mom up and turned around to see an angry John on the floor. John got up and grabbed Alastor and dragged him outside to the back by his wrist. "Father let go." Alastor tried to pull away but his father only held tighter. When they were in the back John punched Alastor to the ground and pressed his foot against his chest to keep him down.

He lit a fire and grabbed a rope that was near him. John tied both of Alastor's hands around and big heavy,long log. He then set the log on fire. "FATHER WHAT ARE YOU DOING!? STOP PLEASE!!" John looked at Alastor as his hands burned. Alastor started to cry but John kicked him in his rib,snapping it. "Men don't cry grow up." John then walked away,leaving Alastor there with his hands burning all night.

-End Of Nightmare-

I wake up in a cold sweat. I knew I wouldn't be able to sleep. I look at the wall to see what time it is. It's 1:12am. I pull my knees to my chest and lay my face down on my knees. I cry silently and I just stay up until morning just for another stressful day to happen. I hate my life. I want to end it all but I can't. I have a boyfriend and a hotel to take care of. Maybe on day I can.

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