Tvgirl writing prompts

The unsent project -(do the act) like you never met me

-explained at bottom-

I look up my name
I have such a common name
I pretend every message Is for me
And naturally I pretend every message was sent from you.
So I can break my own heart

And It really makes me think. I really do look for you everywhere, Mae.
I look for you In every person on that stupid website, I look for you in other people I know, and especially in all the little relics.

Our little trinkets are scattered throughout my room like shells on a shore.. I could press my ear to them and for a moment hear the sea, close my eyes and imagine. And in this fantasy we get to be on the beach together. Keyword: together.

It's like I'm a living in a monument to you at this point. Like a historian with a sieve sorting through each artefact before taking them away from their home, to be shipped off.

Out of sight, out of mind.

Maybe they'll be locked away in a museum or a vault or maybe the little memory box under my bed.

Maybe.

Maybe all the messages on that website are for me

Maybe I'm delusional

Maybe in 5 years I'll open up whatever cage I've placed all the evidence of us in and look at with new more nostalgic eyes. And I'll appreciate it in a less all consuming way.

I will never demand more of your life
More of your anything

Mae I miss you

And I could curse your name
Oh god
I could scream it Just as an excuse to say it
To once again have your name on my lips
But I won't

Instead I'll go to that thought experiment website
I'll take my grievances (of which there are many) out on all the other unsuspecting Mae's browsing.

And I'll tell them I love you
And they'll know I loved you.
And I'll tell them I miss you
And they'll know I missed you

And I'll tell them in my 150 character limit I thought you of all people would have understood.
And I'll tell them that i was so angry
And I'll tell them that I was so sorry
And I'll tell them.
I'll tell them
Oh god I'll tell them

Because I can't tell you.
Which is funny
Because isn't that at the end of the day the point?
What is there in an UNSENT project if the message is received?

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Explaination:
OKAY so this is how I interpret the narrator of the song (Do the act) like you never met me to have reacted after the breakup. I know in the song he's actually very flippant about the whole thing however he mentions the deep ties these two people have and obviously seems very bitter about the whole thing.

I assume after all that went down even though she calls him a "really great" guy to spare his feelings he goes and distances himself completely so when she reaches out he lashes out hard and asks her to "never talk to [him] again" because even though they weren't REALLY exclusive her doing the act really fucked with him. and so now she probably won't talk to him again after that. just like he asked her to, so this is just him contemplating everything that happened between them and yk being petty about it while also maybe very very just starting to recognise that his response was kinda fucked too.

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