I'm crying.
My eyes hurt from crying so much.
I'm crying because I'm confused, and I'm scared and I just want to be happy with myself.
I don't know who I am though.
I am in every single way confused about my feelings.
I've seen every coming out video, and I still can't pin point who I am.
It's not that I'm scared of what my family thinks of me. My parents so supportive of LGBTQ+ people, and I'm INCREDIBLY grateful for that.
I'm scared because I don't know who I am. I'm mad at myself for being dumb as shit and can't figure just what sexuality I am. Because I don't know.
I know it's cliche, but I always knew I was different. I'm not like girls in every single way. I'm not like guys in every single way. I just am somewhere in between. I'm not 100% gay nor 100% straight!
I just know I'm not straight, okay? And I don't know.
I've tried to call myself everything, but it just doesn't ever fit me completely.
Sure I can say I'm bisexual, but entitling it to just boys and girls feels...
Uncomfortable...
Now, I know it says that I'm Pansexual in my bio, but that's because it's the closest thing I can say I am.
For anyone who doesn't know, Pansexuality is where you like people. The base word "pan" means all. Some people call it Omnisexual, too. Pansexual is where you are more attracted to someone based one their personality. It isn't just based on whether or not it's a girl or guy. It just matters if you love the personality.
So, saying that I'm Pan is the closest I can say.
But another thing is that some Bi people say they have a preference of what gender. And I could say that I'm bisexual, but I prefer guys. Heteroflexible is basically what I would say I am, but that word sounds like a slang word and not a sexuality, so I don't typically use it.
I was needing some tips to help me sort this out. I don't even know what to call myself anymore. I just need help, and admitting that I need help to anyone I actually know closely is too hard to say the least.
Please.
If anyone LGBTQ+ are reading this, I really need advice.
Comment them here.
I won't take this down, there might be readers who need even more help than me. This could help anyone.
I just don't know what I can do anymore
