it hurts more than i'd like to admit. it's a fucking guy i like.
in my class, there are only 36 people including myself. i just happen to like one of them, and have been for 3 years now.
yesterday was our first ever dance with a bunch of others schools with kids the same grade as us.
and i've known for a while he likes one of my close friends, but i just deny it in my head.
but i saw him ask her to dance on the last song, and my heart broke.
i love my friend. she's one of the nicest people you'd ever meet. but i couldn't help but hate them dancing so much.
and it's just a stupid guy. a stupid guy my head won't get over no matter how much i know he doesn't like me. and it's not like i can distance myself from him, cause i sit in front of him in class. and just 36 people in our class makes it hard to make new friends and think of other people.
i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.
i hate the fact that i've loved and crushed on this boy for more than 3 fucking years. i hate knowing he doesn't like me. i hate knowing he likes my wing woman and not me. i hate how i care about this. i hate how i like him. i hate how he likes her. i hate how he doesn't like me. i hate how i never seem to get a happy ending.
i don't know anymore.
it hurts.
