A Bit More Won't Hurt

11 - Pin, How Do You Like That Rope?

TW mentions of hanging! Oh look its also in the title! xd
!! focus !!

Still, from the previous night, I had the worst headache. To top it off, I could just barely walk. It was 6 in the morning and nobody was up. I just sat on the edge of my bed.

I thought about Firey. He was taken out by my own hands.

I thought about Pen. He was taken out by my own hands.

I thought about Pencil. She was taken out by my own hands.

I thought about Pin. She is gone and missing.

I felt so... guilty. This all was my own fault. This is why people find me annoying. I wish that one day...

I could become a better person. 

While I was drowning in thought, I got a message from Coiny. I got like a million more after that one. I checked his message and it was about Pin.

Coiny: leafy get up please

I got worried at the sudden "serious" tone. I messaged him back, asking what he wants.

What he said next... made me flinch.

Coiny: when i said me and pin had a fight, i told her to talk to me if anythings wrong! she got mad and said she wanted to die, and started walking away i got concerned until they....
Leafy: They what?
Coiny: found her hanging

My eyes widened. I was feeling a mix of emotions. Like it was really my fault but at the same time it wasn't. I frowned. But in a way, I couldn't stop. I drowned my face in my hands, not noticing Grassy plop himself on my bed.

"Leafy?" I jump and give a quiet yell. "H- Oh! Grassy! Hello!" He looked at me in a funny way. He didn't say anything, but just smiled and stayed with me. I still had a horrible headache, and my frown still visible. Fortunately, Grassy hadn't noticed.

"So... What are you do-" I couldn't finish before he fell asleep on my bed. He must've been tired from... wherever he was. Not wanting to wake him, I tried my best to walk away, but the effects seemed eternal. I still managed to get out without waking him.

However, walking in this house... Gave me an uneasy feeling. It's just that I can't find the words to describe what I mean.

Since Tree wasn't up, and Grassy just fell asleep, I decided to take a walk in the park. It was sunny, to say the least. Everywhere I looked reminded me of how insensitive I was. I don't know why, and nor was I thinking of figuring it out. Every second went by fast, and I zoned out every minute.

Almost like I forgot something...

Oh well, probably nothing. I continued my walk, with Pin on my mind. Why would she... just let go? What was her reason? She was fine! Why did she do that? I could've helped her, right?

...Right? I could've... not. I saw a nearby Flower, so I started doing the "love me, love me not" thing, but with my own version.

...saved her... saved... her... not. Wow. I couldn't save her after all, I mutter. "You okay there?" I look up to see Flower, with a concerned like look. "Yeah... I'm fine." I said, she rolled her eyes,  "You don't like like you are fine." she argued.

Flower sat next to me, as my frown started not to be visible, but not like a smile was forming anyway. Flower giggled as she looked at me. Did I do something funny, or maybe something wrong? Who knows...

Who knows...?

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Wowie this was a weird chapter x'd
Isnt it weird how in both of my books the character that starts with P, is a girl and commits suicshide? lol

yeah yeah ohh ohh anyway hope uyou liked this.chaptwr!!! listening to shoujo rei right now sorry if its short!!

/taso