Breathe Me

Dark Paradise

And there's no remedy
For memory
Your face is like a melody,
It won't leave my head
Your soul is haunting me
And telling me
That everything is fine
But I wish I was dead
Every time I close my eyes
It's like a dark paradise
No one compares to you
I'm scared that you
Won't be waiting on the other side

Alison's POV

I can fell some sort of comfort and warmness in my right hand. I don't know what it is, but it's calming. This time it feels like I've been in the dark for even longer before the lights go up.

This time I'm standing in front of my bedroom from when I was thirteen. That's when I first started to redesign it to look how it does now.

I see my seventh grade self sitting on my bed and smile slightly. I'm flipping through pictures of me and my three best friends. I had met them just a year before in sixth grade.

Suddenly I hear a new voice say, "Hey, Ali."

Both of us look to the doorway and both of us grin at the sight of Emily. She looks so young.

"Hey, Em." Younger me says.

"Whatcha doing Ali?" She asks as she sits next to me on my bed.

"Just looking at these." She holds up a photo of just the two girls that was taken at the park about a month ago. "Don't we look cute?"

Emily blushes. "You look cuter."

Younger Ali rolls her eyes. "Stop being such a sweetie, Em."

Now I remember this. This was when I just started to realize that Emily liked me and that I liked her back. I was so scared though, and I know I'm about to hurt her.

The brunette blushes deeper. "It's true. You are really cute."

"God Em, don't be such a lesbo."

Her face falls. "I-I'm not!"

I scowl at my younger self. "You know this is wrong." I tell her. "You know that you like her back, okay? Stop pretending and maybe everything will turn out okay."

But of course she can't hear me.

She smirks. "Whatever." Then I see a flicker of sorrow and regret go through her whole face and she takes it back a little. "I'm just messing with you, Em... Don't take it bad." It's still not enough, but it's better than what it turned in to. Back then I still had a bit of a conscious left. As I got older it withered away.

Emily smiles again, some of her hurt clearly going away. "I'm not."

They stare into each other's eyes and both start to lean in a bit.

I pray that they kiss, but I know they won't.

Just as their lips are about to touch there is a loud yell.

"Alison!"

Both girls jump apart and we look at the doorway. There's mom. Like always.

"Emily it is time for you to go home." Mom's face has hardened.

Emily scrambles out the door quickly and seconds later the front door can be heard shutting.

Younger Ali glares at her mom. "Why'd you do that?"

"She was about to kiss you, Alison! I don't want that girl projecting these sorts of things onto you!"

"She wasn't! It- we weren't doing anything!"

"She's a bad influence! I don't want her in this house again!"

"Mom, she's in my group. I can't just kick her out." She stands and crosses her arms.

"Fine, last warning. But if I ever see that happen again, that's it, she isn't allowed here." Mom turns and walks out.

"I HATE YOU!" Younger me screams, going and slamming her door after her mother. "UGH!" She screams, belly-flopping onto her bed.

I watch as she cries angry tears. My heart breaks as I relive the pain and frustration I felt back then. If only my mom hadn't walked in, maybe things would've turned out differently.

Now I'm sure that something has happened with me and Emily after we found my mom but I still don't know what it could be.

Before I can think another thought, the room dissolves around me and it's back to the dark.

Emily's POV

I need her to wake up. School without her is awful. I don't know how I can go one more day without her.

I'm at school and Paige walks up to me. "Hey, Em. Why haven't you talked to me?"

With everything going on I forgot that Paige and I even got back together. "Oh." I smile a little. "Hey... Alison has been in the hospital. She's in a coma."

"Why do you care?" She furrowed her brow. "Don't you hate her?"

I sigh and shake my head. "I was wrong about her. She... She did love me. She wasn't just playing games with me."

"How do you know that?!" Paige says, mad.

I hesitate. Ali wouldn't want me telling people about her suicide attempt and I can't tell about the note without having to explain it. "I... just do."

Paige barks out a laugh. "Oh, so you suddenly change your mind?! Em, she's a terrible person!"

"No she is not!"

"What did she say to you that made you change your mind about her?!"

I pause. "I know her."

"No you don't!" She shouts like a little girl throwing a tantrum. "No you don't, no you don't! She is playing games! You knew it before, what changed?!"

"Paige, I'm not gonna argue with you. Let me just say that I know! Trust me on that! And now that I know I can't keep being with you. We're done. For good this time." And then I leave.

AN: YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! PAILY IS DEATH! Anyway when will Ali wake up? Honestly, I don't even know! YAYYY! I know that she won't wake up next chapter but honestly, I'm as clueless as you are about where this story is going. But, that's the fun part! I'll figure it out! Ummmmm.... song by Lana Del Rey... and yeah... that's pretty much it! Hope you guys liked this chapter!

- G. Schreiber

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