It's Not The Way A Boy Should Feel (Sal X Travis)

A Private Moment With Travis

there may be errors in spelling just ignore them also I suck at writing so I am really just trying to practice with spacing out my dialogue so I'm very sorry but either way I hope you enjoy reading >o<

Sal walked inside the bathroom his steps echoed through the small room filled with stalls he turned his head and reaches down to pick up a crumpled paper he carefully unfolds it and tries to smooth it out his eyes gaze the paper looking over the words despite the few tears and folds on the paper sal was able to read it

"I know we don't know each other and you probably have your opinions about me. I thought maybe if I told you how I feel things could be different...The truth is,I can't stop thinking about you. I'm crazy about you. I think you're amazing! But I know these feelings are wrong, it's not the way a boy should feel. Shame swallows me whole. My father would kill me but I can't live in his shadow forever I just..."

"Huh..the rest is scribbled out" Sal thought as he folded the paper again and set it down he wonders who it was from and who it was for though he had an idea...he turns to the stalls and begins walking to the third stall which was closed Sals eyes widen he can hear slight sobbing Sal pauses before opening his mouth to speak "travis?" he heard the person in stall pause "what do you want Sally Face" Travis replied bitterness in his tone yet Sal could hear the tears he was choking back "were you crying-" Sal began but was cut off "why would I be crying can't a guy just have some privacy!" there's a pause for a moment then Sal speaks again "Can I ask you something?" he says calmly as he shifts sitting down his back against the stall door Travis groans "yeah whatever.." Travis mumbled his knees to his chest Sal swallows "why do you hate me so much.." There was an instant response as Travis scoffs "because you and your dumb friends are a bunch of queers it's wrong it's not right God will never love you why should I!?" Sal pauses looking down a moment he plays with the rings on his fingers "ya know...we aren't all actually gay right? I mean except for Todd..Todd is super gay"

Sal takes a sharp breath "but that's part of who he is and I think that's wonderful! I mean he's a great guy- just how could anyone hate Todd?" There's a pause the sound of faint buzzing fills Sals ears making him realize how quiet it is Travis puts his arms around his knees digging his nails slightly into his other arm he doesn't reply Sal leans his head against the door and when he realizes he's not getting a reply he speaks again he sighs "is your father pushing these beliefs on you?" there's another pause for a moment Sal assumes he won't get an answer but his thoughts are cut off "just because my dad is a preacher doesn't mean he owns me..I'm my own person" Sal takes in his words playing with the rings on his fingers again "you..you just seem so unhappy man..if-if your dad is pushing these beliefs-" Sal cuts himself off he can sense the tension growing Travis grits his teeth "being a fag is wrong he isn't pushing anything. It's just not normal, it's not right!" Travis mutters angrily, his nails digging deeply into his arm enough to leave a few marks Sal lets out a sigh "do you have any friends?" Sal says his eyes widen slightly as he sputters "i-i just mean I always see you alone- and uh-" Travis scoffs "I have more friends than you do queer" the bathroom filled with silence again the only sounds hear were the faint buzzing of the lights and the dripping of a broken faucet Sal adjusts himself still sitting against the door he runs a hand through one of his pigtails as he thinks for a moment "ya know...if you ever need to get away from your dad for awhile..or just need someone to talk to you can come hang out with me.."

Travis is surprised by this and doesn't speak for a moment he feels his heart flutter yet his eyes fill with tears he tries to choke back his tears he sighs "why are you being so nice to me" Travis asks quietly with genuine confusion he wipes his eyes looking down at the ground his heart was beating why was this happening..I shouldn't feel this way Travis thought but he was suddenly pulled from his swarming thoughts when he hear Sals sweet voice it was a voice that soothed Travis a voiced that made his heart flutter Travis blushed harshly and tried to focus on what Sal was saying "I don't think you're a bad person Travis" Sal breathes Travis heartbeat quickens he stammers a moment "wha-what?" Sal chuckles gently 'fuck fuck why did he have to be so kind so loving so..' Travis shakes his head trying to pull himself from his sinful thoughts Sal sighs "I believe under all that hatred is a genuine cool guy who..is just.." Sal sighs deeply smiling a little to himself he adjusts his mask and leans his head back waiting for Travis to reply Travis swallows hard his mouth felt dry he felt dizzy his hand reaches and he holds the cross around his neck tightly his eyes fill with tears as he holds them back Sal tilts his head "Travis?" he says Travis grits his teeth as tears fall from his eyes "j-just leave me alone faggot I don't need. Your pity" he mutters Sal sighs "okay..." he says feeling slightly disappointed seeming to not notice the emotion and hurt in Travis's voice Sal gets up Travis holds a hand over his mouth trying not to let out any noise he wouldn't know what he'd do if Sal found out he was crying or worse...why he was crying then Sals stupid voice fills his ears once again "but I'm serious if you ever wanna hang out I'll be there.." Sal says quietly with such kindness in his voice he stares at the stall door his smile fades after a while when Travis doesn't answer he sighs "see you Travis" he says and then his footsteps fade away Travis wanted nothing more then to cry out for Sal to cry in his arms to hug him tell him everything but he can't it's wrong...