Whispers of Forlorn

Chapter Four

Chapter Four

I am really doing this. I am having doubt, alam ko na hindi ito ang totoong gusto kong mangyari pero kailangan kong gawin.

I treasure my father that all I want to do is to abide by his words.

This is a decision that I have to do regardless of any circumstances.

This is not for a lifetime. What's important is that Theone is with me on this, I don't have to worry.

We just have to act, although we are really gonna marry each other dahil alam namin ang kayang gawin ng aming pamilya kung hindi namin ito totohanin.

I have to step out of my comfort zone.

Fours years of being single, still waiting for someone.

After I get married, the single part will change but the thing that I am doing for that someone remains.

"Ella! Labas tayo." I said as I try to find some good clothes on my walk in closet.

"I would love to but I have work. Hindi naman ako tulad mo na pasarap lang sa buhay." Sabi ni Ella sa boses na nang aakusa.

"Anong pasarap? I'm bored to death here!" I said.

I only have a few friends because I isolated myself from others. Kaya naman tuwing hindi available ang aking mga kaibigan ay wala din akong magagawa.

"Then work!" Pabarang na sabi ni Ella.

All my friends are working now, ako nalang ang hindi.

"I don't want to yet." Sabi ko na nagsusumamo.

Mukhang wala akong makakasama na lumabas ngayung araw. Ayaw ko pa naman kumain sa labas na walang kasama.

Tatlong araw na akong hindi lumalabas ng bahay dahil wala naman akong gala at walang nag-aaya sa mga kaibigan ko because all of them are basically busy working.

And I couldn't even invite my other friends because they all have work to do.

Dati si Ella hindi din nagt-trabaho kaya naman lagi kaming magkasama pero ngayun nag-iba na siya.

Hindi na siya ang Ella na kilala ko. Hindi ko alam anong pumasok sa kokote niya at naisipan niya na mag trabaho bigla.

I know her, she's probably keeping something from us.

Siguro may crush nanaman itong sinundan. She could be weird sometimes, she's the type of a person that is willing to take any risk just to try her small chances.

"Hay naku bahala ka! Working is fun." Anya pero ang tuno ng boses niya ay hindi akma sa sinabi nito.

Serves her right! Mukhang hindi naman siya nag-eenjoy at mukhang nahihirapan siya.

Ginusto niya yan kaya dapat niyang panindigan.

"Ano ba work mo at mukhang nahihirapan ka?" Tanong ko sa kanya habang naka kunot ang noo.

"Secret muna!"

"Really? We're at that again?" I said.

Ella is not the type of a friend who shares things on an instance. Sinabi niya lang ito kung nagawa na niya o tagumpay siya.

Specially if it's realted to a guy, kase baka daw ma jinx.

"Sasabihin ko rin sayo after, I promise you that." She said.

I am certain that it's probably a guy thing.

I know her alam kong mag k-kwento lang ito kung gusto na niya ikwento. Kaya hahayaan ko nalang siyang gawin ang gusto niya.