Whispers of Forlorn

Prologue

I let out a deep sigh as I continue to watch the sunset. This has been my favorite past time. It's very soothing, it somehow helps me relieve the tension and pain that I am feeling.

I never removed my eyes from the setting sun, I feel like if I turn away even by just a second, I could miss a lot of things.

This feels surreal, it's feels like just yesterday I was with someone enjoying the sunset.

He was the one whom introduced me to the sunset, he's the reason why I love watching the sunset and it is the reason why it reminds me of him. Every time the sun rays touches my skin, I feel like I am being embraced by him.

Hindi ko lubos maisip na ilang taon na ang nakakalipas simula ng iwan niya ako, pero siya parin ang sinisigaw ng puso ko. I hate him! Bakit nagawa niya akong iwan? We made a promise but he didn't fulfill it.

Grow old with each other? Funny. That could never happen because he left me.

I don't think I could ever find a man that I would love as much I loved him. Pakiramdam ko siya at siya parin ang isisigaw ng aking puso.

Apat na taon na ang nakakalipas pero hindi ko man lang magawang mag hanap ng iba.

It feels wrong, I don't want to love again. I want to leave this world na siya lang din ang isinisigaw ng aking puso.

Nanatili ako sa tabi ng dalampasigan hanggang sa dumilim na ang kapaligiran.

Halos araw araw ito ang ginagawa ko. Ang panoorin ang paglubog ng araw.

Tumayo ako upang pumunta sa aking kotse para makauwi na. That's enough for the day.

Bago pa ako tuloyang makapasok sa aking kotse ay tumunog ng marahas ang aking cellphone. I immediately grabbed my phone upang tingnan kung sino ang tumawag.

It's Ella, and I already know why she is calling.

"Yes?" Bungad ko sa kanya.

"You already know the drill!" Masigla nitong sabi.

I rolled my eyes kahit hindi naman niya ito makikita. Konti nalang iisipin ko na isa na siyang lasenggero dahil sa halos araw arawin niya na ito.

"Same place?" I asked.

"No! There's new one in town. I'll text you the address." Sabi niya.

"Ok then." Sabi ko at tuloyan ng binaba ang tawag.

I could never say no to her because the truth is, I also love the sound of the loud music in the bar. It helps me divert my attention and it refrain me from falling to my deep thoughts.

I instantly drove off on the way to my condo upang magbihis.

Ella loves the bar for the drinks and the men surrounding each corners. Meanwhile, I go there to drink but not to get wasted because most of the time I just observe people around.

I went inside my condo and I was welcomed by the same thing that always slaps me in the face. Forlorn,

Dumeretso ako sa aking kwarto para makapagbihis.

After I picked my outfit, I sat on my vanity mirror to put on some makeup.

Naligaw ang aking mga mata sa litratong nakalagay sa gilid ng aking vanity mirror.