From the Start...(PAYJAY FANFIC)

♡A date...?♡ (PT.2)

[Continued from the previous chapter bc Yesterday i really just wanted to get it out there.]

(OJ pov:)

I listened to Paper talk and talk. For a quiet person, he could discuss A LOT. But, I didnt mind. I loved hearing Paper's voice. Did I say that already? Well, I do. I smiled and listened as I ate the Sandwich that he had gave me previously. I leaned my head onto my hand, looking at him. Giving him nods and small sounds to show him that I knew what he was talking about. I would speak to, Usually unrelated but like whatever Paper was saying.

We had finished eating and now had nothing more the really talk about. We had been sitting here for awhile and had almost spoke about every detail of their lives. Well, There was one more thing OJ wanted to say. But..Now really wasnt the best time. Those words were....hard. Hard to get out. He just didnt know how. His thoughts were interrupted by Paper speaking again.

Paper: "Hm..Its starting to get late..Wanna go on the hill? There's a GREAT view from up there."

Paper said, looking at me with a sweet smile. I smiled back, though I already was.

OJ: "Sure! Sounds great!! Lead the way,"

Paper giggled and started walking. I followed him. We walked in silence for a bit. I fealt like I had to do, Something. Just Something. And, for some reason...Subconsciously I had grabbbed Paper's hand. I dont know why or how that happened and didnt notice it until I heard Paper gasp. I glanced at him for a short second. His face was in shock. I started to worry but Didnt let go. What if Paper didnt want to do this? NO, He didnt want to at all! Why did I do this!? How did I even get my hand there without noticing it!? I need to let go..Im making Paper uncomfortable. I started to let go, but I was stopped by A sqeeze of my hand as I fealt Paper's thumb rub over the side of my hand. My face heated up, as I looked at my friend. He was smiling, but looking away at the floor, So it was hard to see his face completely.

For the rest of the walk to the hill, We had held hands. It fealt so natural, Normal. Like we shouldve done this before. The words "Im gay af" ran through my hand 5000 times As I smiled, holding his hand. We had made it there and let go of holding each others hand. Paper sat down at the edge of the hill, Patting a seat next to him. Wanting me to sit there I giggled and went to go sit next to my Best Friend. I looked a him, and he looked at me. We...Kinda just stared at each other for a bit. After what fealt like Centuries of staring, I said Something.

OJ: "Wow...Its Beautiful here..."

Paper: "I know right!? Its one of my favorite spots!"

(Papers pov:)

OJ stared at the Sunset for awhile as I thought about what had just happened. OJ had just held my hand. HE DID! Just the thought made me so excited!! He might actually like me back! And That just might have been proof. I smiled widely at OJ. I should probably say something, shouldnt I? We cant just stare at eachother forever..I decided to speak up.

Paper: "I really like watching the sunset. Especially when Im stressed. Its calming."

OJ: "Yeah, It is, isnt it..?"

Paper: "Yeah! Um....."

I hesitated to speak. I wasnt completely sure of this...But I had to confess. I HAVE to. But, What if the worst happens? He wont like me anymore, I'll lose my job...OJ will never be my friend again...No-! Just DO IT PAPER!! He'll understand. I repeated those words in my head to reassure myself. I overthought the whole thing. I wanted to plan it all out before I say anything. I cant say anything wrong or Embarrsing!! I planned out my confession.

It could go something like:

"OJ, I love you. Your my best friend and just a great person. Your sweet, kind, and great at your Job. Ever since you made an alliance with me in Season 1, You being there has brought me so much Joy."

No, Too much. He could get overwhelmed. Um.......

"OJ, your hansome as fuck and I fucking love you"

I then imagined Me and OJ making out with each other and him talking me to the hotel and- ew...Nevermind. I couldnt do this one. Too forceful. And I sound weird. My thoughts of trying to form a confession was stopped by OJ looking at me, an eyebrow raised.

OJ: "You ok Paper...? You look a bit...Focused..On something. Is everything alright??"

Paper: "Hm? Oh, Im fine! Sorry..Im just thinking."

I reassured him with a smile and a small giggle.

OJ: "Watcha thinkin' about??"

Paper: "U-um...I- uh..Nothing. Its nothing, OJ."

OJ: "You sure??"

OJ said, looking at me with a small smile. I nodded, I really was ok. Mostly. I just cant find a way to tell him how I really feel about him. Its hard. Damnit, Im just gonna wing it!

Paper: "OJ can....Tell you something??"

OJ: "Yeah, What is it??"

Paper: "I uh......Your- I- m...Uhm...Well-. I lo- Er...."

I stuttered, trying to form some kind of confession. OJ looked at me, holding himself with his hand on the ground and his knee up, Resting his arm on the top. He raised an eyebrow. Im just going to start with the truth.

Paper: "OJ....We...We've been best friends for awhile now. Your...Your a great person..Your really kind, Especially to me. And, yeah, you have your outbursts. B-but...Everyone does! So-I-uh....."

...

No. I couldnt do it. Its too much. I'll regret it. I cant do this. I cant do this!

Paper: "Your a great friend! A-And, Im really glad Im someone you trust."

I said with a smile and a small shrug. OJ, for a second, looked a little disappointed. But for what?? Did he- OJ smiled at me.

OJ: "Th..thank you Paper, you a great friend. Im so lucky that I can be your friend."

OJ said, happily and he sounded geniune. Yep. Now it was basically comfirmed. OJ saw me only as a friend. I was nothing more than that to him. I knew it. If he saw me as more, He wouldve said something. I was right all along. So was Salt! I sighed as I put on a fake smile.

After that, we sat together in silence for a bit, I had nothing more to say and I assumed nor did OJ. He looked away from me. Damnit! He's mad at me isnt he!? He KNEW I was trying to confess and only smiled because he didnt want to hurt my feelings! Shit shit shit! I shouldve never said ANYTHING! My Anxeity crept up. He was mad at me, So mad at me. But I knew he wouldnt say anything, He wouldnt want to hurt me. I knew that for a fact.

OJ: "Hey, uh...should we go back?? Its...Late, I need to lock the doors up soon."

Paper: "Oh-! U-uh- Yeah! Sorry, Lets go back."

I said, trying to smile as I got up, OJ doing the same.

OJ: "Dont apoligize, you did nothing wrong."

Lies. Tell me lies, OJ. I know your mad at me, Dont hide it.

After it all, Things were akward. We walked back to the hotel in silence. I was terrifyed on saying anything. The worst thing was OJ yelled at me right now. So, I would only let out some small, Akward sounds as he walked back to the hotel. Neither of us saying a thing. It was so quiet, I noticed things that I wouldnt notice previously. Like, OJ's walking speed, Noises of Frogs, The wind speed, stuff like that.       After what fealt like forever of silence, We had finally made it back to the hotel. We went inside, and it was quiet. Everyone was already in there rooms. I looked at OJ with a nervous, shy, Smile.

OJ: "Well- uh..Goodnight Paper.."

Paper: "Goodnight Oj,"

Then we separated ways. I went to my room, and he went to his. I thought it all over.

That night, I did not get much sleep. For I was too busy thinking about our...."Date.".

[EHEHHEHEHHEHE YOU THOUGHT THEY WERE GOING TO CONFESS!! L
Well, Theres more bc I want to add more chapters. See you Tommorow my wonderful readers!!:3 1463 Words!!]