Summer of Change (GxG) - A Hermione Fanfic

Chapter 11

I was so bloody confused.

Yesterday was confusing.

These... feelings are confusing.

Could I call these feelings?

Did I have feelings for Molly?

Godrick, I just might...

I've certainly noticed her as a woman. I've looked at her body and found the gorgeous woman appealing - very appealing in fact. I would not dismiss that. I was not a teenager in denial. I was a woman who handled things like an adult now.

But how the hell was I supposed to handle this?

Wanting to shag Ron's mum?

I shook my head mentally.

Hellfire, it was mad.

I was mad.

But... it made sense.

These feelings made sense. I wasn't a dumb witch. I could put two and two together. About my feelings and why being here filled my soul with peace. I wanted to slop younger me for not noticing it sooner. That was why I was pulled to the burrow. It was because of Molly. I had just written the witch off because she was married.

Looking back, I was attracted to Molly even then. The subtle looks her way. The way I held onto everything she said. My eagerness to help her with the chores. My defensiveness towards her when Ron was acting like a total git. I was too keen on her.

And I call myself the brightest witch of my age...

It should've been apparent by that hug Molly had given me when she was trying to console me over Ron.

I felt whole.

I felt like I belonged.

I felt like my whole world came into focus, and nothing mattered except that moment.

I can't believe I'm even entertaining this. Molly is grieving not just her husband, but most of her children. There was no way that she would be ready to move on this fast. And I doubted it would be with me even if she were.

Not to mention, I wasn't exactly stable by any means.

Merlin, what if Molly wanted more children?

I don't- I don't know if that would be something I could-

Before I could finish that thought, Molly stirred in my arms. I had to stop thinking about all of that for the moment. What mattered was Molly. My potential feelings for the witch didn't matter right now. Only she did.

"Mione'?" Molly said sleepily.

Be still my beating heart...

"Yes, Molly?" I replied.

"What- what happened? Why are we..." Molly trailed off, but I knew what she meant.

"You passed out from exhaustion after you..." I said, also trailing off

I want to be as delicate as possible. I didn't want to dredge everything up again and make Molly upset. She needed to calm down and probably eat something to regain some of her energy.

"I remember." Molly said softly.

"Do you want something to eat?" I asked, trying to switch topics.

Molly lifted her head off my chest and looked into my eyes for the first time today. Her hazel eyes pulled me in, and couldn't look away. I was left speechless by the woman in front of me.