I took a deep breath before I started to speak. "I have these... mixed signals about him. It's like, I feel jealous when he is with Samantha but at the same time I don't give a fuck. I like him but at the same time I hate him." I blurted everything out. Virginia was staring at me like I just said the most unfunniest joke ever.
"Okay, that's weird." She finally said something after staring at me like for like 30 seconds. "Yeah, I know right. And I don't know what to do." I sat down on the chair and put my face in my hands.
"Hey, Rose. Don't worry." She placed her hand on my shoulder. "But I have no idea if he likes me or no, because when I first came to Germany we almost fucked. In his car. While he had a girlfriend." Virginia froze, her eyes wide open. "What?" "Yeah, we almost fucked. But then I stopped him and he said that I am a turn off." I sighed.
"Oh, well..." She had no words and if I were her I would react exactly the same way she is now. "I know, this all sounds so stupid." I wanted to beat myself up for even telling her that. "No, no, Rose, don't worry." She tread to reassure me.
I looked out of the window and saw Tom and Samatha together again. "Ugh." I rolled my eyes and looked at Virginia. "Please, help me." "I'll try my best Rose." She said in a soft voice while she was smiling.
The same evening I was laying in my bed and staring up at the ceiling as I decided to go to the bathroom. I stood up and got out of my room, I looked around before I stepped out of my room.
I made my way to the bathroom and opened the door, but the sight in front of me wasn't really pleasing... or maybe was?
"Oh shit!" I closed my eyes with my hands. "Shit! Schlampe! Next time knock!" Said Tom who was standing only in a towel, but before I got to get out we heard Zack's voice behind us. That's when Tom grabbed me by the wrists and pulled me into the bathroom and locked the door.
"Stay quiet." He said quietly but sternly. "Hey, Tom, have you seen Rose?" Zack asked. "No, no I haven't. What happened?" "She said that she needed a lighter so I got her one but she wasn't in her room so I thought maybe you know where she is." Zack explained. "No, I have no idea where she is." Tom looked down at me.
"Okay." With that Zack got downstairs and I let out a deep breath that I was holding in all the time. "A lighter huh?" He looked at me and got closer. "Why do you need a lighter? I've never seen you smoke." He started to step closer till I bumped into a washing machine with my back.
"It's none of your business." I was breathing more loudly and heavily than I always do. "Is there something wrong, schlampe?" He stepped closer until his face was inches away from mine. "N-no. Why?" I was almost breathless. "You sound out of breath like you were running a marathon." Well maybe because he was standing in front of me in just a towel? And that our faces are inches away from each other's? "No, I'm okay..." I suddenly pulled away and got out of the bathroom.
"Schlampe." Tom muttered under his breath.
That night I couldn't fell asleep, I still felt his hot breath grazing my skin. My lips. I still felt his hands grip my wrists... Am I falling for him? No, there is no way I am.
That night I catch myself looking at his instagram photos where he was shirtless at the beach. He didn't even have a single photo with Jasmine or Samatha, that seemed a little bit weird.
Finally after like 30 minutes of scrolling I fell into a fitful sleep. My dreams were consumed by him. Us.
In the morning I woke up by a loud knock on the door. I jumped in a sitting position, not knowing what's going on. "Schlampe, we are going to the beach, you with us?" Tom said pretty loudly. "Oh my- Can you don't knock that loudly next time?" "Or what? Gonna bite my hand off?" He teased. Fucking asshole. I am in a bad mood and if he keeps teasing me I'm going to bite his hands off for real.
"Maybe I will." I said back while rubbing my eyes. I heard him chuckle and murmur something behind the closed door, something like Feisty "Fine, get ready we are leaving soon." He turned and walked downstairs.
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I went downstairs to others and everyone was sitting on the couch and watching TV. Tom of course beside Samatha or Samatha beside Tom.
"Good morning gorgeous." Said Zack who looked at my still sleepy face. I saw Tom shoot him a dead stare but Zack didn't see it. "Morning." I smiled faintly. "Come, sit with us." He patted a spot beside him that was between Virginia and him. Virginia looked at me and smiled. "How did you sleep?" "Uh." I looked at Tom who was in staring at me now, but I quickly looked away.
"Good." I looked at Virginia and shoot her a smile. "Hey, here is your lighter." Zack gave handed me it. "Oh thank you." I smiled, my mind already going back to yesterday.
I opened bathroom door, saw him only in a towel. He grabbed me by my wrists and pulled closer to him that our bodies are almost touching, practically shutting me up. Our faces inches away, that thought only making me wet.
Suddenly I hear giggles and turn my head to look who it was and of course it was Samantha and I feel jealousy fill my chest but I quickly tried to push it away and keep focusing on the TV.
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I wanted to say that I am starting a new book it's called "Stranger". It's a Bill Kaulitz book. And also I wanted to thank all of you who are reading this book <3
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