Walker Scobell One-Shots

-27-last kiss

a/n: enjoy...

I wake up in the middle of the night with an overwhelming feeling of sadness, but I don't know why.

As I sit in the darkness with my head in my hands, feeling so many emotions at once. I reach over and grab my phone, and pull up snap because that's just something you do.

I rack my brain trying to figure out why I'm feeling the way that I'm feeling, until I open my snap chat memories.

As I click through the past, the haze that's over me washes away, and I relive my worst memories, of what I did...of what I wish I never did.

*cue last kiss by taylor swift (taylor's version)*

I still remember the look on his face, back when we were happy before he go the role of Percy Jackson.

Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered for just us to know
A picture, a memory to be exact, shows up when we FaceTimed before we went to bed, and he said I love you.

You told me you loved me, so why did you go...Away?
I think now, I wish I could go back to the moment right now.

Away
That's the moment I knew that things could end badly, but hey I was younger I guess.

I do recall now the smell of the rain
The day that he did leave to start filming Percy Jackson it rained, like the actual gods were feeling my pain.

Fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane
My mom surprised me with a flight to go out to see Walker and hang out on set with the rest of the crew. That was one of my happiest days ever.

That July 9th, the beat of your heart
July 9th was and is an important date for me and Walker. The day that I got to see him after who knows how many months and well... the day we broke up.

It jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms
When I saw him on set, I about had a heart attack, and based off how fast his heart was racing when we got to see each other and hug. I think he felt the same way too, but it's not like I could ask him anymore.

But now I'll go...Sit on the floor wearin' your clothes
I have a hoodie on... his hoodie. I didn't mean to but looking at pictures of him, in a folder I hav-had for him. I realized that I have his sweatshirt on.

All that I know is I don't know, How to be somethin' you miss
I lost a part of myself when I lost him, and I got messages from his friends saying that I wasn't the only one that left that way either. Walker just wasn't Walker, and I wasn't myself.

I never thought we'd have a last kiss
And to think when we first met I thought we'd never even kiss, and nor did I think we'd not be together.

I never imagined we'd end like this
I never thought I'd be sitting in my bed looking back at photos of us and being sad looking at them, not happy.

Your name, forever the name on my lips
"oh walker" I say out loud and start to cry, because I miss him and what we had, what we could've been.

I do remember the swing of your step
Whenever we'd go out he held my hand and when he walked he would sometimes get a little crazy and start swaying. And man I miss it.

The life of the party, you're showin' off again
I remember the time that we were at some get together and everyone was like sorta dancing and Walker decided to get on the "dance floor"- his words not mine.

And I'd roll my eyes, and then you pull me in
I rolled my eyes at him then and now thinking of the memory and the stupidness of myself,

I'm not much for dancin', but for you I did
I never really liked dancing around other people, maybe it was anxiety of being too much, but with Walker it was different, because I loved him.