A newfound piece of light

Love is Such a Silly Word

I live with my regrets, and i hope to whatever god may be out there that im not lying to you when i say "i love you" 

the words linger on my tongue like that sickening taste of nicotine that feels so true to say, but so fake to remember

i dont want to do this to you, i dont want to hurt you

am i doing what he did to me? making the same choices that he did, telling the same white lies to you as he did i.

i pray not

I love you so much, and you mean my world, i dont know what i would do if anything happened to you

but i do know

id pick myself up

id move on with my day

put it somewhere to deal with later

maybe thats what im doing with my love, trying to contain it, to not run so free it did when i was with him  

Im being cautious, and careful , maybe too careful

i barely know what im saying 
Adda feels like a new name but my choices feel like an old regret

and i said it

to you

no hiding

no lies

just

feelings

i regret it already

but i hope you wont