Darling? Did i make you upset??? My hallucinations are getting worse every single day and now i dont know what to do anymore, im slowly losing myself, i cant tell anyone because im scared to go to a mental hospital, i dont wanna go there, im fine i swear....
I wanna cry but i cant, life is just getting harder... at this point i just wanna die, someone just end this misery of a life i have to live
im fine yeah but i just cant handle it anymore, i just dont even know who i am at this point
Does he still love me? Do they still care?
Am i just not doing enough?
My life is crumbling beneath my feet.
At this point i dont have enough motivation anymore to get out of bed.
I can't sleep.
I can't eat.
I hate it when i accidently cut the paper wrong...
I hate it when i can't tell people my problems without overthinking that im making things about myself
I hate when i over think
I hate this
I hate...
Me
Everyday i think.... Do i do enough to prove that i care? Or did i show too much? Are they gonna find out? Oh i hope they dont.... I hope they never do.
What am i doing?
Why am i doing this?
What do i get out of this?
What in the fuck is wrong with me?
I just need a hug...
Do i just need something? If i do, what is it that i need? I dont even know what is happening,
(Guys please dont worry about me, this is just how im feeling, Im okay now i wrote this like 2 hours ago and i didnt post it, So im adding this to let yall know im doing okay dont fret <3)
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-A.J
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