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Gone💮

He's gone

Chuuya felt like thousand knife were stabbing him continously as he searched for someone

That someone whose very dear to him

That someome who he loves too much yet doesn't like him too

That someone who he waits for so they can have their dinner together

That some- chuuya gasped in horror and hurt filled his eyes,

That someone is gone now, he's not coming back

Tears flowed from chuuya's eyes, he knew this moment will come, he knew it from his heart but he denied everything

A choked sob escaped from his eyes as his eyes fall on the black overcoat laying on the couch carelessly

He tiredly picked himself up walking towards the couch, his knees giving up trembling terribly

A painful cry escape from his vocals cluntching the black fabric tighgtly in fear of letting go of the warmth still lingering

"I hate you!! I- hate you!!"

As the words seeped through his mouth it was not from hatred but rather it was despair paired up with sorrow

His throat tightend, he whole body shivering from the amouth of emotional pain he was getting

"Why?... why?.... WHY!!"

Nearby objects shattered broken into tiny pieces, a red aura was emiting from chuuya's body indicating his ability got activated

'Shut up mackeral! And stop playing games we have missions to do'

Chuuya said annoyed by the bandaged wrapped male who was playing games in his phone

The male pouted as he whined 'only if chuuya uses the word please, only then i'll come'

The male grinned looking at chuuya's red angry face

Chuuya's red teary eyed shot open as he remembered the past, bringing the fabric near his body he embraced it in desperation as he started muttering

"Please" "please" "please" "please"

Please" "please" "please" "please"

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Please" "please" "please" "please"

Please" "please" "please" "please"

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Please" "please" "please" "please"

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Please" "please" "please" "please"

"Please......dazai"

Chuuya looked miserable muttering those words for hours, not stopping for even one second

Grief, anguish, angony, regret,anger, hate, love,

Every kind of emotion flowed with words from his mouth, until he stopped muttering

Silence filled the messy apartment

Hatred filled chuuya's heart, hatred for that one person

And chuuya will make sure that he dies with this hatred only for that one person

"Dazai-san, what are you looking at?"

Atsushi asked confused when he saw dazai froze looking at something or someone

Moving his eyes towards the direction where dazai was looking his eyes widened

A mafia executive and a mafia member was just there standing few feet away from them

He frowned something was different then he noticed they were holding hands which looks a bit intimating

"Aren't they fro-"

Before atsushi can finish dazai walked towards them with a smile which clearly looked faked

"Hey chuuya and... tachihara long time no see"

The mafia members turned towards him, not shocked but tachihara looked a little scared

"And who you might be?"

Chuuya asked not showing any kind of angression but he tightly held tachihara's hand to give him comfort

The two detectives surely noticed, dazai felt a sharp pang in his chest as he fisted his palm

"Oh the dog has forget about his owner? Thats so bad"

Dazai teased trying to annoyed chuuya but the executive didn't showed any expression

"Dog? I don't know who you're calling a dog? And kindly called me by my last name 'Tachihara'"

The both detectives eyes widened in shocked, they looked at tachihara who was blushing covering his face that when they noticed a ring, they couldn't see chuuya's as he was wearing gloves

"You're m-married? W-why?"

Dazai asked his voice cracking, pain and sadness filling his insides, chuuya nodded rolling his eyes at the two detectives

"Got any problem? Traitor"

As the last word escaped chuuya's mouth dazai can feel more pain

"I heard you ran away from port mafia because you wanted to be a good person, ha! How funny"

Chuuya chuckled the hatred he buried inside his heart came crawling outside

"What are you saying? Dazai-san is a good person!"

Atsushi defended dazai who was frozen in his place looking at chuuya who was filled with hatred looking at him

"Good? He? Don't make me laugh he's nothing but a coward who rans away because his little heart couldn't handle the problem he made for himself"

Chuuya knew why dazai ran away. It was because of oda's death but knowing chuuya was his lover that time dazai didn't even bother to say last goodby making him think was chuuya even important to dazai or was he just someone to be leave behind

"Just because you're saving people doesn't mean you won't be paying for the sins, dazai"

Chuuya said smirking, dazai can feel uneasiness inside his chest

"I'm had no cho-"

"Don't... care, unlike you i'm not someone who will leave there loved ones behind, i rather fight the whole world of unknown people than to fight my love ones"

Chuuya said shrugging his shoulder as he gave loathing look to dazai who can clearly see the hurt behind chuuya's stern voice

"Well good luck for your journey of becoming a 'good person' dazai"

Dazai looked at chuuya's icy blue eyes filled with hatred and suddenly there was a warmth and love in them but it was not for him, it was for tachihara

Dazai can do nothing but to watch chuuya leaving with his partner

The end

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