"Chup mahi Chup hai ranjha
Bolein kaise ve na ja
Bolein kaise ve na ja
Aaja aaja"
Chuuya in his life never thought he would beg for something, hell no even imagining it was making him feel like puking
But here he was on his knees crying in his lonely apartment, his blue eyes filled with sorrowful tears as it slide down his rosy cheeks
His throat dried and paining, holding his chest in a fist he tried to focus on his surroundings,
Night lamps.
Tables.
Coat, black coat
He choked out a sob looking at the entrance with the hopeful eyes maybe 'he' will come back and say he was just teasing him
But he never came, why?
Why is everyone seems to be angry with him? Chuuya was angry on himself too
He heart cried, feeling its peices shattering all on the floor. No one seems to want him at any point of their life as if he was just something to be used and thrown like a garbage
He was shattered
'Please dazai just look back, just one time'
Chuuya hoped inside as his eyes blankly stare at the open door of his apartment. His eyes stopped producing tears after crying for a long time
His heart still screaming seemingly upset with himself, his mind only on his part- ex partner who had ran away
Chuuya was the last person to know dazai had ran away, his crime in partner, his lover had ran away without telling him anything or even a last goodbye
He couldn't believe his eyes hearing kouyou informed him this until mori graded dazai as traitor. Chuuya felt so weak and vulnerable
He left the building running towards his apartment thinking maybe it was just a prank done by dazai, he thought dazai would be inside his apartment sitting on his couch lazily and will greet him
But when his entered there was no one, only a jet black overcoat laying carelessly on the couch. That was the last thing dazai had left at morning before leaving for a solo mission
Chuuya can do nothing but to hold that coat near his chest where his heart is begging him to see dazai last time
Chuuya felt betrayed and played. He felt like he was nothing to dazai that the man didn't even spare to look at him last time
How do i tell him to not leave me? Please don't leave me just come back. Please....
Chuuya cried, screamed, pleaded and begged but no sign of dazai, his beloved
Why won't dazai come back?
Chuuya thought dazai will not leave him, will not break his trust but why dazai did this to him even after knowing how many times chuuya was left behind by his love ones
First his gang sheep, then his friends flag, then his brother verlaine and now dazai...
Is god angry with him? Is this why god is punishing him?
It was not even one week of dazai leaving chuuya felt like he was on the verge of dying, he was not used to this separation from his partner
He knew how his subordinates looked at him, he knew how his mentor looked at him
Pity.
He hated that, he didn't wanted pity. He wanted dazai, he wanted that man for his whole life just for him
But god is cruel
Until chuuya met dazai, after four years. Chuuya heard his voice. He was with kouyou when a deep and velvety voice spoke not near him but not also far
He tensed as he felt like some heavy boulders where on his shoulders not letting him move
Chuuya can hear it, he can recognize it even in a crowd of many voice. But the only thing is he couldn't see where he was
Please come back......
To be continued
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