This is a story where Beomgyu is living y/n's student life... in other words it's a love story I made up from 5 pause games and some answers from Yggdrasil on discord, because I am sick and bored.
Soobin and I talked until the end of the lunch break. I was really glad for that because it was a momentary escape from my depressed mind and it felt like talking to an old friend. The conversation was mostly about simple things such as our favorite games... mainly about that. It occurred to me that he might also get along very well with Kai. They seemed to be a pretty similar kind of nerd.
Now I was after school so I waited by the gate like Yeonjun suggested in the morning before he ran away. I sat on the curb staring at Taehyun's message, while my other hand supported my heavy head.
I wasn't even thinking about whether to go or not, I do care about him, so... of course I have to go. I'll show up. But like...
Oh my God, I will definitely die there. I thought rubbing my tired eyes.
"Here I am. Did you wait long?" an out-of-breath question came to me with a few quick steps.
Did he even run because of me? Gosh, now I see him whole from absolutely different perspective. I chuckled standing up on my feet and shaking my head in "no", even though it was more for disbelief related to my thoughts rather than actually answering Yeonjun's question.
"I like to wait... it's kinda peaceful," until the waiting is over and you have to force yourself to act and take some hard life steps again.
Yeonjun didn't seem to understand me right now as his hand slid down his neck, but he smiled awkwardly and nodded anyways.
"Never mind. Can we go?" I really didn't want to stay in this place, at best no public one.
"Yeah, sure..."
We walked side by side, choosing sidewalks and streets those used to be less crowded. Yeonjun's hand slightly hit mine time to time, as if we had magnets implanted in them. No wonder... I felt that too. Our bodies were already used to each other's touch... just my heart and mixed feelings worked alike the opposite pole of that magnet.
I grabbed my hand with the other and took a deep breath.
"Did you feel better after I left?" Yeonjun asked after a while.
The question recalled the worst memory of my day and made me grin.
"For about three seconds."
"How is that?" Yeonjun chuckled and started to play with his fingers to distract them.
I cleared my throat as I felt it getting too tight.
"Kai and Taehyun heard me yelling at you..."
"Oh... ouch," Yeonjun hissed, his eyes wide open.
"Yeah..."
"What- did they tell you something afterwards?"
"I might be kind and love you as hell, Beomgyu... but unfortunately, I'm not as easy as that sly fox."
I gulped and began to rub my palms together to stay as calm as possible.
"Kai told Taehyun he doesn't want to see me today... Taehyun wanted them to talk to me, but Kai led him away. That's why... yes," instead of finishing the sentence, I took out my phone from my backpack and handed it to Yeonjun to read the message.
I noticed his lips quivering as his eyes carefully ran over the words.
"Oh...," he grinned first, then he handed it back to me, keeping his eyes on the screen until it was out of his sight. "Will you go there to meet him...?"
"Did I cry alike a crybaby again? Taehyun is my childhood friend and... yeah... of course I will," I sighed and looked up to the sky.
"Mhm..."
"I might be crazy falling in love multiple times... but you must be a real masochist," I told him honestly and decided to grab his little finger with mine to at least bring back his smile.
Success.
"Hach... not like I can help it."
"I know..."
We were actually in the same boat... such is the fate of soulmates. It wasn't Yeonjun's mistake we were predestined... mine was that I fell in love with not one but both of my best bestfriends... but love can't be such a big sin, can it?
Yet I still felt guilty because my feelings made us all upset and Yeonjun was somehow supposed to fight this with me no matter what.
"After I received the message... the senior guy that made us awkward in the morning approached me."
Just the mention of him made Yeonjun tense up a little bit.
"Oh really?" and the nervous smile was back.
"Yeah, he told me you're nice and I am lucky to have you."
"Oh gosh, that silly-" Yeonjun took back his hand and combed back his bangs with it.
"And he seemed really nice too," I continued adamantly, "why don't you talk anymore?"
It took him a while to gain the courage to speak.
"Because I cut him of," he blurted out and heavily sighed into his palms. "It was me..."
My eyes glistened... as if I unexpectedly found some more of unknown empathy and connection to this sweet human.
I didn't interrupt him anymore.
"The person I mentioned... the one I- the one I slept with - it was Soobin. We dated. Sooner or later you would find out anyway."
Oh damn... It took my breath, but it kind of felt like my subconscious already understood the hints while talking to Soobin.
"Why... did you stop...?" I asked, even though I already anticipated the answer.
"I met you in the infirmary."
Oh hell no, the headache is coming back.
"I told him about what I felt... and that I don't want my feelings to hurt him anymore."
I dug my fingers into my hair and honestly... I wanted to pull them out.
"But you still loved him, Yeonjun. God, do you still love him?"
The senior only looked away, biting his cheek from the inside.
"Okay, now I really wanna scream," I raised my voice in panic. He was already happy and gave up on it all because of this unbreakable bond?!
"Please don't, people will notice us," Yeonjun's face already looked awkward and he tried to pull me aside, so that some lady could pass by us.
"Bro! Do you get how much doomed we are?!"
The elder student just smirked in embarrassment, wrapped his arm around my waist and silenced me with his free palm.
"Very aware of it..."
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