I head back to class so embarrassed. I hit his balls, then his head. I try to ignore everything that just happened and go about my day. Once lunch comes around I sit with Cecelia and Abigail, who are out of this world kind.
"Cece!" Abigail shouts after Cecelia makes a very lewd comment about Abigail's boyfriend. "What? I'm just saying your boyfriend's hot." Cecelia shrugs with a smirk. "Anyway, have you seen anyone yummy yet?" Cece asks, smirking at me while taking a sip of her water.
I nervously tuck a strand of hair behind my ear before speaking. "Well there were these boys earlier-" as if on cue, I'm cut off by the blonde and brunette boy from this morning, approaching the table. The brunette one smiles. "Ooh boys and glitter and- and.....shit Finn give me one." He speaks in a mocking tone, hitting the blonde boy, Finn's chest.
My face reddens and I look over to Abigail and Cecilia. Cecelia rolls her eyes as Abigail smiles brightly at the blonde one. Must be her boyfriend.
"Wait- who is this?" The brunette looks me up and down with a sly smile. I cringe. Gross. I frown and he immediately notice reaction. His smile drops as he quickly speaks. "No, I just meant you're super pretty and stuff nothing like um-" he's cut off by Cecelia. "Shut up Carter." Cecelia rolls her eyes.
I look over to Abigail and notice Finn sitting next to her. I was too engrossed in Carter to notice he even moved. Carters cute, I'll give him that. I just haven't been able to look at anyone the same since I was seven. I lost so much that night. Not just my innocence, my ability to trust.
As I think of it all tears well up in my eyes and I run out of the cafeteria. I run straight to the bathroom and throw up everything. I sit at the toilet heaving for moments before I finally catch my breath and begin to sob. I wipe my tears and look in the mirror only to see my mascara smudged everywhere. I don't see myself anymore, I haven't seen myself. I don't know what I want to see, I think I just want to be seen.
I sniffle, grabbing paper towel and rubbing it all off. I let out a shaky breath before heading out of the bathroom to see Carter standing outside with a frown.
"Hey....um about...um...." He trails off, clearly uncomfortable. Great, just great. My first day and I'm already ruining everything.
"No, um don't even think about it. In fact, forget, please. It's all good." I give him a small smile and he frowns, brows furrowing in confusion as he shakes his head. "No, I clearly made you uncomfortable and I'm sorry, it really wasn't my intention," he runs his hand through his hair. "I've been told I can be very um...un filtered." He gives me a small grin. I giggle slightly. Okay, maybe he's not that bad. I still tread cautiously.
"Well, I accept your apology and your unfiltered-ness? Whatever, is fine." I smile. He smiles back and swings an arm around my shoulder. I panic, I don't show it though. "Well new girl- shit, what's your name? Fi- fo-" I cut him off, tone laced with amusement. "Fidah, it's Fidah."
He smiles and we walk off.
/I realize I'm late for my French class and I'm not to upset about it. I'm fluent in it. I decide to take the longer route around campus by crossing the parking lot. I have my headphones in, humming along to the music. 'Iris' by the 'goo-goo dolls'. Definitely a favorite. Something about this song just hits different, and I love it.
Im going to change my song when I suddenly bump into someone. "Shite," I blurt out, embarrassed. I look up to see the boy from earlier. Just great.
"Oh, I am so sorry...again..." I nervously remove my headphones, giving him a small smile. His expression is unreadable as he crosses his arms over my chest.
"Are you stalking me or something new girl?" He asks, raising a curious brow. My face reddens. Of course I wasn't stalking the guy.
"Wh- what? Of course not. We just happens to be in the same place, at the same time," I cross my arms over my chest. "How do I know you aren't stalking me?" I ask pointedly, lifting my head up to look at him. I wasn't small, I was only 5'7. Compared to him? I looked a bit smaller than I was, considering how muscular he was.
He grins, narrowing his eyes at me. "Fidah, isn't it?" What? How does he know my name? I open my mouth to speak when I'm suddenly interrupted by a ginger girl with the most gorgeous blue eyes coming out of the car behind him. "Baby, I-" she narrows her eyes at me, crossing her arms.
The boy freezes. He turns to speak to her. "Riley, we talked about this-" she cuts him off. "No! No tadgh, we've talked about what you want, not what I want!" She immediately shouts, stomping her foot on the ground like a small child.
Okay then. I awkwardly and quietly step away, putting in my headphones and heading to class.
/
Finally, schools over and Aiden's outside waiting for me. I hop in the car, exhausted with all of the fake smiles and laughter when all I want to do is go home and just sleep.
"So, how was your first day?" Aiden gives me a hopeful smile, hand gripping the steering wheel slightly. I let out a breath before hesitantly speaking. "It wasn't....the worst, I even made a few friends." I shrug, throwing my bag into the backseat as Aiden lets out a breath.
"Great.....that's just...that's grand Fidah.." he smiles, hand in gripping the steering wheel. "Friends you say? What're they like?" He starts up the car, beginning to drive off.
I sigh, staring out the window. "Um well there's Abigail, she's really nice and very sweet," I pause before speaking. "Then there's Cecelia, reminds me a lot of myself." At least the person I could have been.
And that's how the rest of the ride home goes. I think I might like Tommen.
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FanfictionTadhg spent years watching everyone around him heal from their past. Everyone except him. Is one girl going to change all that? Is one girl going to turn his entire world upside down? From a young age Fidah new how cruel this world is. Fidah is just...