Could've Been

Mine Too

Nowadays I try to pray every morning cause if I don't I doubt I will. After my prayers today I just wanted to listen to brother stone. And roll up a Jay watch all of these single mature women take their kids to school, I feel like an early bird, or maybe I am one. The worm is the view, I can see both the seaport and the airport right now. Feels amazing but my phone starts calling and it's a ninja. Why the f would a ninja call me this early, then I hear him yap about a bitch. And I get the impression he is one of these fishermen who give 100 % of them to bitches. They lack ambition and should be pruned because the more they exist, the more weaker men exist in the society and they will influence other younger men who lack roll models to think that that's how men should be. Shouldn't there be a book or something to explain stages of a man's life already, I think it exists. I just barely read it anymore. It needs discipline and I am Indiscipline. So this ninja screaming in my ear, and I'm busy lighting up my Jay. "Yoh bro what do you think you're doing!" I take a deep puff trying to understand who's on the phone coz I got no idea. "Leave Marion alone! I won't say it again to you!!!"  I get surprised and respond with anger "Who is Marion Yoh, I barely know who's talking to me right now and you here crying like a bitch with a male sound, who are you and which Naomi?" I hang up on the guy. It's drizzling and I'm getting cold so I go inside. I think the last parts of june and the entire July is a cold season 😂, I now see how often I used to spend time with my exes on these months. We all were introverts but with time I got forced by life to be an extrovert, that is not a good thing in my kind of relationship because apparently most of these females be preening on me. They want to have a taste of me. This leaves her very insecure, especially when she sees all the nudes I be getting as bombs everytime I get online. However that ended and my prayers every day is that my exes keep regretting and I still be the one who they think of when they need to feel like home. I think I am a very welcoming person, though I don't speak much, I think I flow with the movement of the universe, it's insane I know. I become the movie star wherever which is good in a way and bad because of the attention. If you need a listener okay. I'll smile awkwardly and you'll laugh. That is slowly how someone trusts you. I have come to see that it's not age that matters anymore. It's money and exposure. Without those this place sucks for you I'm sorry. But having to work with Chinese, Indian, African all these in one place and no discrimination makes me ask myself alot of questions to be honest. It's a crazy world out here, be safe, stay dangerous, be alert and don't let anyone abuse your confidence or test your wrath. Because if you do that to them you will receive it from them. So deliver with a more exaggerated damage.