Tiara had told me she was going to take the test today since her period ain't been happening and it's been a week so it's fair enough. I had sold some more dibs for extra cash but Ima save. After I told Hore what happened he had been mad at me because him and ma were the only people who gave a fuck about my life.
I punched on the boxing bag harder and harder. Hore started laughing on the phone. "Yes little man listen to your ma don't do any trouble" I know for sure he a great father that guy deserves everything in the world. He hang up and walked up to me grabbing the boxing bag in place for me as I punched. "Don't think much about it man" he says this sad look in his eyes. "Nah man I'm good I'm chilling" I say but I ain't chill. I'm fucking mad at myself. I could have been more cautious and maybe this is a sign that is telling me to lay off everything and focus on business. He took the bag far and looked at me. "What you worried about man?" He seriously asking me that?
"Nah man what if it comes out as positive I'm eighteen man" Hore looks at me firmly. "Then you quit fucking hoes and become a godamn father to the child" Hore has it easy cuz his wife amazing and he got the perfect family but shits different for me. Tiara a lot older she like twenty eight. I don't know shit about being a father but if the test comes out positive and its a girl I'm screwed. I have no idea how to raise a girl or boy for that matter but I'd rather it be a son.
"Aight man type shit" I pull him into a hug. "see you around" then I go home.
I take off my gym clothes and get in the shower , I ain't a cold shower guy. I turn the water as hot as it could get. Everything been shit I swear to God if it comes out positive it's everything down on me. Ma would ask me nicely to be a father to the poor child and what if I fuck up and everything goes wrong. I ain't a nice guy I never was. I seen some things as a kid that fucked me up and I obviously don't want no child of mine ending up like me but I'd still teach that child to know what's actually important in life. I look down on my shit and it's all dead cuz I deep down know I'm getting tired of fucking these hoes but I keep on fucking them good and it's been tiring my fucking mind. I don't give a fuck if my dick hurting but if I ain't enjoying what's riding me good I don't know how we boost it up. I've been getting tired of all them bitches all the same , ain't no bitch is as innocent as she looks under her pretty smile because deep down all them hoes want money. Either you broke or rich she ride that dick and pick yo money up and leaves you. Bitches be getting crazy.
My hand grabs on my dick and I start to pump. I keep on pumping and pumping but I'm not reaching climax yet. Think of something. Ass. Big tits. Pussy. It ain't working. Shit ain't coming out. I pump and pump again and again. I drizzle soap on it and pump and pump but what comes out was frustrated grunts and groans. I'm fucking her good in the backseat and that pussy clings on me good. Holds on tight. Her little moans. Hickies she gives. When she sucks. Nothing is happening. Hell nah. "Fuck is wrong with you nigga fucking stop this shit!" I take the shower curtain down , put boxers on and hop in the bath tub. Ice cold water running. I cry. Like a little bitch. Who knew crying felt this good.
TIARA
I had to tell Leon the news so I rush to his place and it wasn't locked so I get in. He ain't in the living room and I hear voices from the bathroom. Of course this nigga got a girl over. I search all the rooms until only the bathroom left. I open the bathroom and he's in the bath tub crying. First time I see this nigga cry. "Leon" I say. He turns around and instead of getting mad he smiles. And I'm thinking he's beautiful. Tears were on his face. "Come in with me" he asks his voice hoarse. I slowly take my clothes off and this time he turns around so he can't see me. I'm left with a bra and panties. I slowly get in and he makes way for me. He gets a little close. "You're so beautiful T" what happened to him. I lean to him and kiss him on the cheek and his eyes widen. "Tell me what happened" He looks down on the water. "Nah T lets just get out tell me the news" he gets up to leave but I grab his wrist. He looks at me as if he's searching something. "I'm right here Leon I can listen why cant you tell me what happened to you" He frowns. "T let me the fuck go" No I'm sick of him acting all tough. "Leon I won't fucking let you go I want to listen and you're gonna tell me everything. " he grabs on his dreads and looks stressed. "Ain't ready to be a dad T" This nigga hella funny. He shouldn't have fucked me but I see that he's stressed and he looks kind of cute. I gently press on his bicep and start rubbing on him his head still down "Leon you ain't the only one scared hell I can't take this" He comes closer and does the last thing on my mind , his long arms embrace me into a tight hug. I feel him kissing on my neck but not like he was about to fuck the shit out me this one was more... warm. I feel his smile his teeth on my skin. "You take the test ma?" he asks. I haven't taken it yet I wanted to do it at his place.
