My safe place

Why?

Why does he push me away?
Am I not good enough?
Did I do something wrong?
Did I hurt him?
Why?
Why instead of telling me he's pushing me away?
While I'm cutting the fuck out of me from blame? I'm the fucking worst!
I want to know
I want to help
But all I do is hurting
Im toxic to everyone
Even to myself
I should be dead
Yeah
I need to be dead
For the sake of everyone....
Dead..