𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑝𝑎𝑖𝑟

16

The outside was dark and silent, only a little bit of yellow light reflecting over Yibo's small face making him look softer then ever and delicate as a baby.

Yibo hold his little cat who is growing fat slowly over his lap and sat like a statue lost in thoughts.

Yibo lived wirh his parents for past 20 years totally away from people yet they never made him feel lonely like this, he wasn't stressed like now.

Zhan's behavior hurt his heart in the most terrible way. He felt suffocating and breathless. Yibo can't eat something he wants, can't go out just because it's cold outside, can't do anything just because he has a baby inside him. His heart is totally terrified to he do something which Zhan dislikes just because he can't.

" It's cold outside, why are you sitting here so late?" Yibo flinched from Zhan's sudden arrival and the touch over his belly.

He looked at Zhan with his phoenix eyes looking a bit dumb when Zhan picked him up from the sofa over the gallery and carried him inside the room.

" did I not make it clear to you that you can't sit for too long over the gallery at night?" Zhan scolded Yibo as he laid him over the bed and wrapped him up with the comforter.

" I.." Yibo wanted to tell him that it's not even an hour yet Zhan rudely cut him off.

" how many times do you want me to repeat myself so that you can listen? Do you want to catch cold in this stage? What time is it now? It's past 10 pm! Why are you not sleeping yet?" Zhan harshly spoke with Yibo making him tremble in fear.

" I.. I am sorry! " Yibo whispered softly with tears running down his beautiful eyes. His heart clenched painful with those words.

" why are you so disobedient? Again sorry? What can I do with your sorry? Do you think you can always be disobedient then say sorry and it's all over?" Zhan who was still just shouting at Yibo was just enraged with Yibo's tears and sorry. He clenched Yibo's jaw with a harsh grip making the baby shook his head in no as he cried in terror.

" Yiyi sorry! Aaahhh! " Yibo cried softly trying to clam Zhan down who hold his jaw making it hard for him to speak properly but to let out a sickening wail in pain as in between all the anger, shout and cries, Zhan's elbow somehow pressed against Yibo's belly where a tiny lump could be seen.

" hurts!" Yibo wailed in pain pushing Zhan's elbow form his stomach and curled up sideway.

Zhan didn't need Yibo's pushing to leave him, he let go at once Yibo cried in pain and let Yibo threw his hand away. He slowly rubbed Yibo's belly to calm down the baby. He was sweating in stress and the rage and anger all he showed was cold at that moment like an ice.

Zhan was distressed as Yibo cried clinging to his hand. A few weeks ago he learnt this move to calm down the baby when it's irritated and hurt Yibo.

Even if the pregnancy crossed the first three months safely without much reaction, Zhan was still horrified from the constant sickness Yibo went through, like fainting out of nowhere, sudden loss of appetite and continuous cold and fever. Even if he strictly took care of him, Yibo still always managed to catch cold out of nowhere and he couldn't even take medicine which did not help making Yibo thinner then ever.

Zhan's dark face relaxed when Yibo's crying voice became inaudible and slept soundly after some time. Zhan carefully laid down next to Yibo after making sure that Yibo did not wake up again and slowly caressed Yibo's abdomen which was too small for someone who is already 4 months into pregnancy.

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It was already next evening when Zhan come back home early and show something wrong with Yibo's expression who curled up over the bed and hugged the cat tightly.

" Yibo?" Zhan called Yibo as it was past dinner time and Yibo did not eat anything yet. He hold Yibo's wrist trying to get him sit up but faced with struggle.

" let go! " Yibo sobbed sadly trying to make Zhan leave him wrist yet it was of no use. The cat was enraged and attacked Zhan but was thrown down making Yibo struggle more.

" Come down and eat! " Zhan spoke with patience as he forcefully dragged Yibo to sit up.

" don't want to eat!" Yibo spoke with tears as his red phoenix eyes were puffy from long time crying.

" You can throw tantrums later after you are done with the food! " Zhan did not listen to Yibo but forcibly drag him out of the bed towards the door.

Before Zhan could take Yibo out, he was bitten by Yibo's small mouth and was forced to let go. He looked at the teeth marks and eyed Yibo crazily and wanted to just drag him over and teach him a lesson but petrified and frozen at same face.

" w-what do you think you are doing?" Zhan felt his throat dry and uncomfortable at the moment to speak as Yibo hold a glass and broke it over the table.

Zhan looked at Yibo's red eyes and felt his heart stuffy and breathless. He took one step towards Yibo wanting to grab the broken grass away but step back two steps in dread when Yibo clenched the broken glass tight making red blood drops drip all over the floor.

" I don't want to eat! Don't want! Why is gege always doing this to me?" Yibo sobbing in pain as he gripped the glass making Zhan's breath hitched.

" let go! Yibo.. Don't be like this!" Zhan spoke breathlessly yet didn't dare to move a step towards him or dare to threaten him. He fear if he step one more step forward then Yibo might do something rash even though he is not like this.

" why..! I.. It's suffocating ahh..! " Yibo cried sadly. " Can't go out! Can't see mama, papa! Can't eat anything! Can't do anything! It hurts! Ahh.. I..!" Yibo cried sadly breathing heavily as the blood dripped all over the floor. Zhan's eyes turned bloodshot in pain watching him like this.

" It hurts! Yiyi hurts so much! Want to go home! " Yibo wailed in sadness as he dropped the glass making Zhan run over and hug him before he fall down over the floor.

"I want my mama, papa!" Yibo burried his face in Zhan's chest and cried extremely sadly. " Yiyi hurts so much!" Yibo sobbed as he clenched Zhan's shirt tightly almost leaving wet red blood patches over the white shirt.