𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝑖𝑛 𝐷𝑒𝑠𝑝𝑎𝑖𝑟

17

"The patient is experiencing considerable stress and depression. It is essential to support his mental well-being, as unmanaged stress can adversely affect both his and the baby's health. Please ensure he remains calm and receives the necessary care." Dr. Smith informed Zhan after treating Yibo's injuries.

Zhan nodded slowly and let Mr. Han lead him out. Dr. Smith was the doctor Zhan invited to China from abroad as he has experience in male pregnancy. He is one of the best senior gynecologist with zero failure.

Zhan just sat next to Yibo holding his hand tight. His eyes were bloodshot and dark like a bottomless pit with unknown depth of emotions.

Zhan sat like this for two hours till Yibo woke up fully and snatched his hand away from him, making him aware that Yibo is now awake.

Zhan saw Yibo was scared and trembling fearfully. He knew Yibo was scared knowing he hurt himself and was scared of him and his punishment. Yet he did nothing to scare him more.

Zhan got up and went downstairs. He made simple broccoli and pea soup for Yibo and carrot juice.

When Zhan get back again Yibo was already curled up over the bed trying to look smaller in fear. His phoenix eyes were red and there are marks of tears must because the boy cried when Zhan left.

Zhan put the soup and juice over the side table and let Yibo sit up who was extremely obedient even if trembling in fear.

Yibo was really scared of this silence. He obediently drink the soup and then drink the juice when Zhan feed him without any resisting. He knew Zhan is better when he scolds him or screams at him as in this way he doesn't hurt him but once the man is silent, that means he is furious and will hurt him severely if he is not good.

When Zhan again left to keep the bowl, Yibo slowly got into the blanket and wrapped himself tightly from head to toes. His heart was heavy in fright thinking what Zhan will do to him. It made his eyes turn red pitifully. He slowly hugged his stomach.

Deep inside Yibo really depends over his baby. When he first knew it's existence he couldn't accept but slowly he started to feel emotional as it's his and his gege's little baby. He is aware that Zhan doesn't like him as if he likes him, how could he bear to be so cruel to him yet he still hopes that it's not true.

The baby is the only source for him to receive Zhan's care. He really likes the way Zhan hug him and touch his abdomen all the time. He also hopes that Zhan at least love their baby even if he doesn't like him.

But sometimes Yibo felt so lonely that he wants to leave. Some days he felt dead as no one talks to him, no one hug him other than Zhan and no one asks if he is happy. Yibo really miss his parents and wants to go to them and hug them but he is scared that Zhan will hurt them.

He really didn't mean to hurt himself today, but he was restless and wanted to meet his parents. He didn't know why he reacted like that and hurt himself when he knew what he was doing it was already over and he fainted.

He wanted to say sorry to Zhan for scaring him yet he couldn't. He didn't want to make Zhan restless and hurt, he really doesn't mean it. His heart was so heavy when Zhan looked at him in panic and eyes filled with dread, it made him get back to right mind and drop the glass. Yet it was late.

Yibo slept insecurely as it's the first time that he wasn't hugged to sleep by Zhan and it made him restless in his sleep. But with in 4 hours Yibo was awaken by someone pulling him out of the blanket in which he was suffocating himself.

" Baobei.. You will strangle yourself, don't sleep like this!" Yibo who was woken up suddenly was so scared by Zhan who spoke in a low and gentle voice.

Then Yibo slowly looked at Zhan whose eyes were red and watery. Yet his face was normal without any strictness and mockery like always.

Then Yibo slowly sit up and get the water glass which was empty and looked at him as if wanted to make sure something.

Yes., it's nothing new for him. In these two months Zhan sometimes come to him with his drunken state. Those few times before made him aware that Zhan is not like his papa who is good with wine and silently went to his room. From the first time Yibo knows that Zhan can't drink and has extreme low alcohol tolerance.

Every time Zhan get drunk, he ither hug him and cry like a baby asking for forgiveness or just hug him and kiss him all over. The drunk man likes to act cute with him, kiss him, hug him, call him with different names and Yibo is extremely obsessed with the drunk Zhan who loves him so much. He likes the way Zhan look at him with eyes filled with boundless love and warmth without any disgust and pain.

Yibo is so obsessed with drunk Zhan that he can just sit over his lap all night listening to his begging and cried for forgiveness till Zhan remember that he and their baby need rest and coaxed him to sleep.

" It's empty baby, let gege fill it for you! " Zhan said sweetly with a gentle smile while taking the glass from Yibo and walked unsteadily to the sofa and filled the glass with water and bring the water to Yibo and looked at him cutely.

Yibo drink slowly from the glass and it made Zhan notice the bandage over Yibo's hand.

Zhan slowly took the glass and let Yibo let the glass go and made him drink then put the glass away.

" baobei., gege is sorry! Didn't take care of Yiyi, let the Yiyi get hurt!" Zhan spoke slowly as tears made it's way out of his eyes as he hold Yibo's injuried hand.

Yibo panicked when Zhan cried and pulled him to sit next to him as he hurriedly wiped Zhan's tears.

" Gege is sorry! Yiyi.. Sorry! " Zhan cried looking lost and sad. His heart was painful thinking he couldn't protect the baby otherwise how could the baby get hurt.

"shh.. Gege.. Don't cry!" Yibo hugged Zhan tightly even if he was disgusted with the wine smell all over Zhan.

" Sorry., it's all my fault. I hurt Yiyi, made Yiyi hurt!" Zhan cried as he admitted his mistake.

" I won't hurt myself again! Please don't cry gege! Woo.. Yiyi sorry!" Yibo cried in sadness as he couldn't tolerate Zhan crying because of him.

" Why are you crying?! Don't cry., don't cry Yiyi! " Zhan was panicking when Yibo started crying. He forgot his sadness and hugged his baby husband over his lap and coaxed him not to cry.

"wooo... Yiyi is sorry! Won't be like this again!" Yibo cried sadly as he leaned over Zhan and put his head over his shoulder feeling the hand which was running over his back trying to calm him down.

" Baobei., please don't cry! Please! It's not good for you and the little Yiyi inside ok! " Zhan coaxed Yibo in a gentle voice and wiped his tears softly not to hurt his soft cheeks.

" hiks!" Yibo slowly nodded hiccuping from time to time.

" Yiyi is so good! " Zhan kissed Yibo's head warmly making Yibo smile and hug him.

" It's late baobei! Get some sleep OK!" Zhan told Yibo was scratching his back gently as he hugged him.

" But Yiyi wants hug!" Yibo pouted cutely as he broke the hug and looked at Zhan with extreme lingering eyes. He really wants his gege always like this, always hug him, love him but it's only possible when he is not sane.

" ok., gege will hug baobei to sleep! " Zhan was so cute by Yibo that he couldn't help but peak Yibo's lips and laid him down over his arms under his head and pulled Yibo into warm embrace.

" Go to sleep now., baobei !" Zhan told Yibo as he cuddled with him and rubbed his tiny baby bump." you little Yiyi, you too sleep!"

Yibo looked at Zhan eyes filled with longing and kisses his cheeks and slowly closed his eyes and let sleep overtake his awareness. He knew once he slept he will lose this gentle gege till God knows when, yet he was helpless. Zhan is like this just because he is drunk and Yibo also knows that a person can't be drunk forever, he will change to his real personality once he woke up.

" Yiyi loves you so much., please don't leave gege!" Yiyi slowly mumbled in his sleep making the drunk Zhan look at him and kiss his head.

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