Hard life

Wrong way

2022. Winter break

Charles' POV:

As I realized what I was doing and stepped back while letting him go. I covered my eyes and sat back in the chair awkwardly. I felt so embarrassed, my cheeks felt hot like lava.

"I'm so sorry Max I don't know what got into me, please let's just forget it that this happened." -I begged for him while my tears started gathering

He didn't say anything so I even got more anxious. Then I felt his hands on mine. He pulled them out of my face and I opened my eyes slowly. I saw him kneeling in front of me wearing nothing but sweatpants. I felt him rubbing my hand with his thumb and he smiled at me sadly.

"You were right. You remembered well." -he almost whispered

My eyes widened and he put his right hand on my face caressing it. I still felt ashamed for saying those things to him but at least I was right.

"I just wanted to be perfect for you if..." -he said and took a deep breath- "if we ever get together again..." -he said in a low voice and pulled his hands away

I was speechless. He is already perfect for me why did he have to ruin him self like that? And then it hit me again, "get together". He thinks about us too? It's not just me who still is attached to him?

"Charles are you okay?" -he asked as he slowly almost scaredly took my hand in his

"I am just- do you want to get together again?" -I asked and I was terrified as hell

I looked in his eyes and they seemed teary. I got worried. Is everything okay with him? If no then am I the problem? Was this trip a bad idea? Then the next thing I felt was a warm hug as he pulled me closer.

"Is there a good answer for this?" -he whispered

I hugged him even tighter and closed my eyes as I buried my face in his neck.

"Charlie..." -he said his voice full of love and I couldn't help but kiss his neck softly- "I would like nothing else more but-"

"I know, you don't have to continue, I feel the same way and I know you don't want us together but do you still think this trip to Switzerland is a good idea?" -I asked as I pulled back to look in his eyes

"Of course! I love hanging out with you! You are one of my best friends after all" -he said smiling and winked at me playfully and I giggled

"I'm glad that you don't want to delete me out of your life" -I whispered and looked down from awkwardness

"Hey, why would I want that? You are the most important person in my life, I could never forget you" -he said as he lifted up my chin to be able to look in my eyes

I was so thankful for him. He still wanted to be by my side so I wanted to thank him somehow. I put my hands on his shoulder and I kissed his cheek softly.

"Just my cheek?"-he asked laughing

I hit his chest playfully while laughing a little.

"I still love your lips the most buuuut you are just my friend dutchie" -I said and now we were both laughing

"You know in many family they kiss each others lips" -he said as he came closer

"Weeell then you have to marry me first I guess" -I said mischievously and I put one of my hands on his chest while keeping the other on his shoulder

"Mhhh, are we playing bad?" -he groaned

I leaned to his ear and whispered.

"I love teasing you"