Bad idea, lamine yamal

five

                                   REAL LIFE!

i kept turning trying to find a comfortable position in the bed but nothing seemed to help i just couldn't sleep my mind kept replaying the way he hugged me they way he acted like nothing happened between us i wonder if he even felt guilty for what he did who am i joking right after the breakup he was posting her showing her off in ways he never did with me and what hurts the most is that i can't hate him i should have noticed when he wouldn't call me anymore when he wouldn't bother to tell me random jokes through the day even if he knew they weren't funny was i that naive did i love him so much that i ignored all the horrible things he did to me just to keep him

                                    (flashback)

" are you okay " i asked him

" yeah why wouldn't i be " he answer me

" you just been distant you don't call or text me random jokes through the day it just feels like i did something wrong " i told him

" i'm just busy athena gosh you're so clingy it's like you need me to be there 24/7 " he said in a harsh tone 

" sorry you're right i'm being over dramatic " i told him

" yeah you are i have to go " he said hanging up the call before i even got to say anything

                               (end of flashback)

i need to forget him i can't keep allowing him to be the only thing i can think about i look over at my phone to see it was 5 in the morning maybe i should just get ready for today i thought to myself well walking towards the shower and turning it on i need a cold shower to wake myself up and get him off my mind but nothing really helped he was consuming all my thoughts the way he used to touch me the way he used to care for me i just don't understand what went wrong i don't get how he loved me one day and didn't the next i hate the way he did everything in his power to win me over and i hate that i let it happen that i didn't shut it down sooner

                                 (flashback)

" you're really beautiful you know that " adrian said catching my attention

" you're just saying that to win me over " i told him well playfully rolling my eyes at him

" i'm not athena, i always thought you were the most beautiful girl i've ever seen and i mean it " he told me well grabbing my hand

( flashback end )

" athena hunny are you up " i heard a light knock on my door

" yeah i'm in the shower " i answered

" you're up early " my mom said

" umm yeah i decided to take more time getting ready " i said trying to make up a excuse for the real reason why am up at this time

" oh is that so is there a cute guy in you're internship that you're trying to impress " she questioned

" eww no i just want to look put together " i told her well turning off the shower

" you know you can tell me athena you don't have to lie to me " she insisted

" i promise you if there was a guy you would be the first to know " i told her trying to get her to give up on the topic

" okay fine then i'll let you get ready " she told me well leaving my room