sooner, conrad fisher

four

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it's always one step forward and three steps back
i'm the love of your life until i make you mad
it's always one step forward and three steps back
do you love me, want me, hate me?

boy i don't understand
no i don't understand
and maybe in some masochistic way
i kinda find it all exciting

1 step forward, 3 steps back- olivia rodrigo

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irl
june 23rd 2022- 10:49
sommers family summer house

i spent my morning swimming in the pool. it was my favourite part of the beach house. i was able to swim by myself no one else around to judge me or interrupt me, it felt like i was in a whole different planet the way that the water felt against my skin and how the sun shone perfectly so it would make me tan but it never got in my face or blinded me. i loved the pool back home but was always packed and it wasn't in my backyard. this pool was in my backyard and it wasn't crowded at all.

once i finished swimming i hopped out of the pool grabbing my towel and phone before heading into my house. it was oddly quiet since my mom is usually up by 8:00 am. maybe she slept in? i stopped in the kitchen to grab my favourite snack. a kashi fruit strip-specifically the passion fruit flavour-when i saw my moms note on the table.

dear deedee,
your dad and i were called into work because of a
finishing project that no we cannot do online. we'll
be back next thursday. in the meantime i've left
you the emergency credit card. it has around 10
grand on it so i trust that you won't use over 10
grand
before your dad and i get back please only use
it in emergencies or when you go out with your new friends.
-mom

my parents had never left me at the summer house alone but i guess i was older now so i could take car of myself. i was just glad that i didn't have to get the drinking under age conversation with my parents.

as soon as i finished my snack i headed upstairs to my bathroom where i checked up on my tan lines. they were crisp and quite noticeable-which i was very happy about-considering i'd only been out for around 2 hours. the uv must've been really high.

after a happy 2 hours of swimming and tanning i was in the shower using my favourite body wash from dove that smelt like mangos. mangos we're my signature scent and my favourite fruit. we had about 12 mangos lying around the kitchen for me to eat. i continued my mango themed shower and when i got out i pulled on a white tube top from lululemon-that had a built in bra-and i paired it with my pink studio seven shorts before i got to doing my curly hair routine.

my hair wasn't curly-curly just small ones that were like mermaid waves but curlier. i grabbed my favourite beach tote back from old navy. it was called crochet tote but it had large holes so you had to put a smaller bag inside. in the small bag i placed my favourite bikini-and a one piece just in case-my favourite summer friday's lip balm-iced coffee-my phone and my wallet.

before leaving i put on my favourite bow earrings and small star earrings from evry jewels. i put on my kendra scott white opal necklace-that i had gotten from my grampa for my 13th birthday-i followed that with my seashell necklace. after that i headed downstairs put on my white gazelles from adidas and was out the door.

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irl
june 23rd 2022-12:00
fisher summer house

"thanks for inviting me over," i smiled to belly.
"its no problem. i didn't want to go deb shopping and be the only one deb buying stuff," belly replied just as conrad came down the stairs.
"madi's being a deb too?" he asked pointing at me. i hadn't really told anyone about it, but after seeing my moms note i'd decided to text her about it. she said she'd already signed me up and since i was planning on doing it now she'd add another 10 grand to the card since debs were extremely expensive.
"what's with the new nickname? you met her yesterday," belly said with an edge of venom in her voice.
"i think madi sounds better than liny," he smiled at me.
"ohhkay let's move on to the topic about debs," i said changing the subject.
"yea why do you wanna be a deb?" conrad asked.
"we'll my mom had already signed me up but nicole, shayla and gigi told me i should do it," i said informatively
"cool, very cool," with that conrad was gone.
"shall we?" susannah said using her hands to lead us to the car.

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irl
june 23rd 2022-2:06
cousins shopping center

we had been shopping for around 2 hours when we stopped at a boutique with the fancy hats nicole had told me about. susannah told me they were called fascinators and that every girl would be wearing them. i chose a cream coloured one with black lace bows around it and smaller pieces of black ribbon mixed into the cream ribbon at the top. belly's was a muted pink and it was pretty simple.

"first meeting outfits are very important," susannah told us, "it helps show case what kind of a person you are."

taking this into account i put more thought into my outfits especially my first meet outfit. i planned to wear my fascinator with a cream coloured skin tight silk dress that had a triangular cut at the top, the lines around it were black and there was a small black bow in the middle. i paired it with heels that had bows in the front by your toes.

we looked at a couple of deb dresses for the real date but id decided that id much rather go and choose mine with my mom than with people who id just met the other day.

after all the shopping we left our bags in susannah's car and headed for ice cream at this place called benny's dipped cones. i ordered 2 scoops, one of coffee and the other of peanut butter brownie, belly got pink lemonade and blue raspberry, laurel got all vanilla and susannah got peanut butter brownie and cookies and cream.

we walked down the streets trying to window shop but belly and i ended up buying a whole bunch of fancy-and normal everyday-clothes from a couple stores. soon enough laurel decided it was time to head home and that me and belly could to something together that didn't involve spending money.

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