Unseen Eyes

The Hospital

The constant beeping of hospital monitors act as a lullaby. They're always there when I go to sleep. And when I wake up. Well, when I wake up in my dream. I haven't actually woken up yet. I'm in a coma. I have been for months. I don't really know if I'll ever wake up or not. No one really knows. Doctors and nurses are in my room most of the time. Sometimes, I'll get a visitor. But it's rare. Everyone else gave up on coming. Except one person. Everyone except Gonzo.

He's been visiting me everyday since I was admitted here, in the hospital. He's been very supportive. He's the only one who hasn't given up on me. Even my parents gave up on me. He tells me such sweet things. He reads me poems. He even wrote a song for me. It's called Lay Me Down. The words hold so much meaning, My favorite part of the song is when he sings, 

"You told me not to cry when you were gone 

 But the feeling's overwhelming, it's much too strong

Can I lay by your side, next to you, you

And make sure you're alright

I'll take care of you

And I don't want to be here if I can't be with you tonight."

He treats me better than my own boyfriend. My boyfriend, Tristan, only visited me once. The day my "accident" happened. The only accident was that I was saved. I didn't want to be saved. I wanted to die. But I didn't, I'm alive now. And I'm stuck with this pain. Not just physical pain, but an emotional pain, too. Tristan should be here everyday with me, instead of Gonzo. I know that he lives across the country, but if he really cared about me, he'd be here. I have a pain in my heart because I've come to the realization that he doesn't care about me as much as I thought. 

"Naomi? Are you awake yet?" His sweet voice hummed in my ears. I wish I could respond, but I can't. And I've tried so many times. Every single time, it didn't work. It pains me to not be able to talk to him. I feel so close to him. "I wish you could hear me...I really want to talk to you.."

I can hear you! Talk to me, go ahead! I've been wanting to talk to you to, for a long time now. Why can't you hear me? I can't see him, but I can feel him. He's sitting in a chair next to the bed.

"I wrote a new song for you. It took me a while, actually. I hope you can hear it..Anyway, it's called All of Me. 

"What would I do without your smart mouth

Drawing me in, and you kicking me out

You got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down

What's going on in that beautiful mind

I'm on your magical mystery ride

And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

My head's underwater

But I'm breathing fine

You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

'Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, oh

How many times do I have to tell you

Even when you're crying you're beautiful too

The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood

You're my downfall, you're my muse

My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues

I can't stop singing, it's ringing in my head for you

My head's underwater

But I'm breathing fine

You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

'Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

'Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you, oh

Give me all of you, oh oh

Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts

Risking it all though it's hard

'Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

'Cause I give you all of me

And you give me all of you

I give you all of me

And you give me all, of you, oh oh oh."

Please sing it again...I love hearing you sing to me. I tried to hold his hand, but I couldn't move. All of my actions are not functioning. 

He gasped. What happened?  "Naomi? Can you hear me? C'mon...I felt your hand twitch. You've gotta be in there!"

The hospital monitors speed up. What's happening to me? "We need help in here! Something's wrong!"

The nurses come rushing in. "Stand back!" They hover over my body, checking my vitals, and the IV, making sure everything is flowing like it needs to. "We need a doctor in here!"

A doctor comes in a bit later, "What's the diagnosis?"

The nurses all look at each other. "Doctor...it's-"