Deadly Beautiful. (Xianwang ff)

Addiction

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Wangji's breath hitches hearing Wuxian. No, he can't marry the emperor, he just can't. He just wanted a beautiful normal life with his husband Xichen. Why is his life falling apart..he couldn't understand.

He was speechless, his heart heavy, his eyes got glossy themselves. He fell on his knees immediately, "..My lord..I don't understand what you are talking a-about..Please..I beg of you, j-just..just let me stay being your concubine..I need nothing more than this, please", he pleads with all his might.

But the other was just observing the boy who was helplessly knelt infront of him. Wuxian sighs and leans on his throne more, "...Fine then, don't look at me with those eyes", he looks away. The way his heart ached seeing the boy's vulnerability and helplessness..it was his first time feeling this kind of emotions, he was already stunned my Wangji's beauty, but now he is stunned by his feelings for the dear Wangji. He couldn't help but wonder, was this the real 'love'?

Mian immediately came forward and slowly raised the boy by his arms. LanZhan stood up and bowed deeply, "Thank you my lord", he utters softly with lowered head. Wuxian turned his head back towards him, "You can leave", the latter spoke firmly, his eyes piercing the other like a dragger, Wangji immediately nodded and left feeling relieved.

Mian and Jingyi bowed to the emperor and followed behind their Lan Gonza. They both exchanged the looks, they knew that Wangji was still shook up by how the Emperor brutally killed all the bunnies yesterday. So they didn't wanted to give him more pressure and talk about anything that'll make the latter break down more than he already is.

Wangji entered his court, he suddenly felt sick and sat down near the window. He sighed deeply and looked out gazing at the garden, where all the bunnies died yesterday..no trace was left, but the trace which was left in his heart..he can never forget that. He knew his fault was that, the innocent animals died because of him.

"..Mian", LanZhan utters softly, the girl who stood behind immediately came forward and kneeled down, "Yes, Gonza?", she asked while looking at him. "Get me the pills from Concubine Zhao pl-". Before he can finish his sentence, Jingyi entered bowing, "Gonza, the both concubines are paying their visit here".

Mian looks towards Wangji, who nodded softly, she nodded back and looked towards Jingyi, "Allow them inside", she utters. The other hearing this immediately nodded and went outside to inform. After sometime, the both concubines entered with their two, two servants. Wangji stood up slowly and bowed down.

"Oh as beautiful as ever Wangji, how are you?", Dilmurat asks while caressing the boy's hair gently with a smile while Lusi had a sour expression. Wangji just nods his head, "Wangji..", Lusi came forward, "I heard what Emperor did and it was brutal..nobody should go through this", she utters with frown.

Dilmurat looks towards her and gives her a look, she sighs as she already told Lusi to not bring up this hard memories, but now the tongue slipped and nothing can be changed. Wangji hearing what the other concubine said looks down sadly, Mian and Jingyi were in the same condition as they looked away not being able to see their Gonza in this condition.

"Look, Wangji..you know we are like your sisters and..this is indeed a very sensitive topic..but, you know you can talk about it..it'll make your heart and our heart lighter too", Dilmurat utters while gently patting Wangji's shoulder who looked up at her softly. His eyes were getting glossy, he felt warmth..like home.

"I-its my fault..I should have kept the gift and cherished them..", He utters, his tone breaking down slightly by the pain in his voice. Lusi immediately came forward and hugged him tightly, "I can understand...it seems like, emperor is very much..obsessed with you, its not your fault..its his, he is the one to be blamed for taking the life of innocent animals", she whispers soothing words to the other's ear.

"Yes, what Lusi said is true Wangji..you shouldn't blame yourself, this way you'll go in the depression and wherever will happen around you..you will starts blaming yourself in every little things..", Dilmurat says while rubbing LanZhan's back with desperation to comfort the other down.

"Do you know that every concubines comes to serve the Emperor and to win him over..but you are the first ever concubine whom the Emperor himself wants to win the heart of..I am not taking the side of our Emperor, I am not even jealous..but I wanted to clarify this and..I did..even how painful it is to shallow", Lusi utters softly while hugging the boy more tighter.

"Please don't even utter his name infront of me anymore..I hate that man with all my might, my heart, my body, my soul...He destroyed my life", Wangji utters, he slowly breaks the hug. His eyes was filled with hatred..but also helplessness. Lusi and Dilmurat silently looked towards him and nodded softly. They knew how painful it was for the beautiful boy.

While Mian and Jingyi were also watching the scene quietly, they were also in the similar pain which their gonza was going through. Suddenly their eyes widened when they saw Wuxian standing on the doorway. Probably..he heard everything.

They were stunned and were about to stand up when Wuxian motioned them to keep quite by placing his finger on his lips. They stopped and acted like nothing happened, but were tensed up for their gonza and quietly looked towards them so they could also see who was standing on the door way and listening everything.

But before Wuxian revealed himself, he just departed from there, swiftly moving away from the doorway. Mian and Jingyi glances at eachother in fear, confusion and also in disbelief. They thought that their short-tempered Emperor will finish them all, but wait, what?..the Emperor just silently left? They couldn't understand.

Meanwhile, Wangji, Lusi and Dilmurat were still unconscious of the fact that Emperor came and just left listening to them all. "You shouldn't take those pills more Wangji, tell me how much you take for one night?", Concubine Lusi questions.

"I started taking two pills for one night as he comes to my chamber every night. So, my body cannot hold the exhaustion and I take two", The other utters. Dilmurat and Lusi gasps hearing that, "Wangji! Tell me you are lying!", Dilmurat holds the boy's hand while frowning. "..I am not..it atleast makes me feel good..", he utters softly while looking down.

"The pills are just for the starters Wangji, two three times is okay and then you can slowly enjoy it yourself, but taking the pills daily results into having a very deadly habit. You can get addicted! We warned you at the first time right?", Dilraba says with frown, she then looks towards Lusi and continues, "And you..concubine Zhao, knowing that the pills are harmful..you still supplied it to him without thinking much.."

Zhao Lusi was speechless, she looked down im guilt and remorse, while Wangji just looks at her and his gaze darted down. "..I forgot the count..", Lusi utters softly with guilt. Dilraba sighs and shakes her head softly, she then looked back at the boy and held his hands tighter, "Wangji..you need to stop taking the pills, okay? It is harful..it is like a drug, you can get addicted and can't live without it..the pills can take your life too..because I have seen many cases of this pills taking lives from the concubines..I don't want you to end up like that Wangji, please understand me and stop taking the pills okay? Make a habit of serving Emperor every night without it", she tries to make the boy understand who hearing all this just nodded.

Only Wangji knew that he was already addicted to the pills and now cannot even spend a single night without it.

..It was just too late~..

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