UNROMANTIC

Chapter4:The windows through your heart

Rajveer Sharma
6th April 2024

She's just a glance away and why it feels like she's so far away.
I'm not the type of person who keeps on beating around the bush so I hate the awkwardness.I start the conversation to break the silence and asks right away,' Are you sure you're okay doing this way?If you're uncomfortable I'll just sleep on the floor.And why do you seem uncomfortable around me?Just tell me honestly.We'll manage.' Then she answers in a worried tone,'No no!It's not like that.It's just I need sometime to get familiar with you...' Then I reply,'Oo it's that so.Okay take your time.So how about some conversation?' She nods and replies yes.And we have conversation between us about various things like our likes and dislikes,past experiences,hobbies etc.We stay up all night as we forget to sleep because we are too much drawn in our conversation.It's already 3 a.m. when she starts dozing and we go to sleep.She really sleeps well.If we don't have conversation tonight she might have fallen asleep long ago.It's rare to see her staying up like this.But I'm not like her,I often stay up late if I have complicated cases.As I'm getting used to this,it almost becomes a habit ,even though on day offs I can't sleep early.

7th April 2024

As I'm awake and look on my phone it's 7 o'clock in the morning.Then I turn my head on the other side to see her sleeping so deep with her body facing towards me.I sometimes wonder if she secretly takes sleeping pills as she sleeps so deep that she don't know anything if she falls asleep.She looks so harmless and innocent.Further last night she was talking in her sleep shortly after she fell asleep.She was continuing our conversation in her dream.She's a shy person so I don't intend to talk about that otherwise I'll be pushing her away from me.She just starts to become comfortable with me so I better not bring that up.Actually it was very funny to experience such thing.She even answered to the questions I blindly picked up to see if she answered back.She's so cute and simple indeed.I would be very guilty if I fail to protect someone like her.If she smiles my heart is at ease.And I don't wanna see her being sad.If possible I wanna wipe out everything that would make her sad.I've been caring about my loved ones so far but this time it feels a different taste.What's this really?It's it the so called love.Am I really fallen in love with her?And why do I feel afraid of being found out that I care for her?They are truly foreign feelings to me and it's hard to explain and control them.

She wakes up after thirty minutes I wake up.I've brushed my teeth and finished bathing too.She is half awake and walking with her pajamas towards the bathroom door.I'm coming out of the bathroom and she happens to be leaning at the bathroom door and dozing off.I have no idea she's standing there.When I pull the door to open she falls towards me.Thank God I have managed to support her with my arms otherwise she would have in a bad shape.She's also startled and pulled the towel on my neck with her eyes wide open.It looks like the incident makes her wide awake.She put her hands off the towel and stands still and I see her face blushing.As soon as I walk outside and trying to ask her if she's ok,she runs inside the bathroom and closes the door with a quick bang sound.Then I walk away and dress up.I go towards the courtyard and find out aunty and uncle arranging the table for breakfast.I run towards them and give a hand."The weather is nice today so we plan to eat the breakfast outside"aunty states with a big smile.

After sometime we all sit down to have breakfast.While having breakfast aunty starts to talk to lighten the atmosphere,'Have you two had a good sleep last night?'I reply that it was good and Kaveri also replies the same.Then aunty talks about her not longing of parting us today and we can't help but to go back home today as my five day leave ends today which was started from 3rd of this month.After having lunch we have finished to pack our things and ready to return home.Aunty tells us to visit again when we have time.Sriya also wishes to see us again soon.At 2 p.m. we set out for home.It's a three hour trip so Kaveri sleeps at the backseat to compensate her lost sleep from last night.Mom has just done the evening rituals when we reach home.When Nandhini gets off from work the house feels lively once again when she starts to make noise again.She pulls Kaveri to her room and starts chatting like they usually do.After having dinner we are ready to sleep.As usual she starts reading a book sitting on her bed with her back leaning against the wall.I have checked all my tomorrow's plan for work.The hectic workdays will be resume from tomorrow again.She wishes me goodnight and sleeps first.I also go to sleep after completing my work plans.It seems like she's becoming comfortable with me little by little that before going to sleep she tell me to sleep early as I have to go to work tomorrow.

8th April 2024
It's 7:15a.m. when I set out for work.I see her(Kaveri) standing at the gate with her lingering gaze towards my departure from the side mirror of my car and loss her sight when I take a new direction.Her tender gaze seems to tell me something like "Have a safe trip and I'll be waiting for you."Maybe she have a different thought inside but those two eyes which are the windows through her heart make me think this way.She's a speciality of speaking with her eyes I think.Being in the detective field I've been dealing with a lot of people having different colours of personality.So I've been good at reading people but it's not easy with her case.It feels like she's kept a password.It's somewhat hard to get what's really in her mind moreover she's quite most of the time.I've tried to hack her mind through talking but she's not talking much about her.She enjoys listening more than talking.From our conversation I only know she likes reading books.Half of her story is about studying and reading.She's said that since childhood she's always engaged with books so she didn't make much friends in the past and it's same for the present too.She 's also said that she grew up as a shy person so she has not attended much social events in the past but after starting to work she has gradually become a little bit sociable after making some good friends.

Comparing to her I'm the pole opposite I hate staying quite for a long time so I'll be the one who always start the conversation.During childhood I grew up leading my class as class monitor.I was always the first one to step to answer the questions from teacher.I've recieved a lot of outstanding awards in both sports and studies.I have easily gotten along with a lot of people.Even those quite friends become talkative if they are around me.I've completed my graduation in computer engineering so I've experienced the mischievious days of engineering college.There was a very strict teacher who always nagged about good grades and punished us a lot for nothing.Even though we get good grades he had not satisfied and told us to be better.He had a pleasure seeing the students suffer. We used to pull peanks on him as he was so annoying.

I reach my office at 7:45a.m. and get to see the hectic sight that I've missed for five days.Mine is the special crime division so I'm dealing with a lot of crime cases.Actually it's a very stressful job but I enjoy doing it thinking that I can contribute in bringing a crimeless society.Our country is vast with a large population so it's obvious to have a lot of crimes.When I reach my office our unit has working on a new case.I have recieved the details of this case from one of my colleague last night.So today we will be continuing to work on this case.This is the case about the murder of two boys from the same college.And surprisingly this is the college Kaveri is gonna joined soon as  counselor.They are from different states and staying at the boys' hostel of the college.The murder takes place at different time and different places with same message left on thier dead bodies stating,"Know your place".From the examination of the forensic team it's confirmed that they are killed in the same way by a same person.We are still on our way of solving the case.And the more questionable thing is both of the dead boys have strong family backgrounds who have the narrow chances to meet this fate.The murderer must be a pro one having the guts to do this to these rich and powerful people.One of the boy's father is a political practitioner so people are suspecting this to be the indirect act of the people who are on the opposotion side of this political practitioner.