Opposite Worlds

Waiting Room

Evangeline

Waiting Room-Phoebe Bridgers
'know it's for the better'

DISCLAIMER!!!!
there will be purging of food near the end

my keys unlock my front door and i take my shoes off, hearing voices.

"Jane? i'm home like you asked."

i walk deeper into the house, going in the kitchen. when i get in there i see Jane, the rest of the family, and Beth.

Beth has been my case worker since i was a baby and we have a good relationship. not as close as i am with my current family though.

"please, sit." i sit down at the table with them and my siblings are ushered away.

"me and Braydon's licenses expired. so you have to get moved to another house." Jane finally speaks after a few seconds.

"okay...for how long?" i ask.

"it can be a few weeks, or months possibly." Braydon answers my question.

it's hard to believe this is actually happening right now.

but i mean, what can i expect? nothing ever continuously keeps being good. in my years of being in the system it's never been good, but when Jane and Braydon found me three years ago.

my life changed, they fed me, gave me whatever i wanted, enrolled me into school, let me go to Anchor. none of it would be possible without them.

"your new foster parents talked to the dean at your school. you are still able to go to school there but they aren't comfortable with you sleeping overnight there."

"what?"

Beth gives me a sad smile and we continue talking before i go to pack some stuff. tears run down my face as Braydon hugs me, his own eyes bloodshot red.

"try to talk everyday okay kiddo. i love you." Jane kisses the top of my head and Beth put her hand on my shoulder.

"let's go kid! i need to get dinner started."

David and Makayla. my new foster parents.

a sob leaves me as we drive away from my home and as we get to their house my tears are gone.

"alright, first things first. you will not interact with anyone at school. and to make sure of that, Blair will keep an eye on you."

can this get any worse.

"your phone is now a privilege, you are to talk to Beth when Beth calls and only Beth." Makayla gives a fake smile.

"that's not allowed, it's my personal item." i argue back, and try to take my phone, but a hand meets my cheek.

"stop being disrespectful, you will not be doing that in this house. David, show her while i take Blair shopping."

an evil smirk makes its way onto his face as he roughly grabs my arm, dragging me to a room.

all i can remember is trying to push him off me and i was screaming and crying during it. that's what happened three weeks ago.

i haven't hung out or talked to Billie since then and along with the rest of the group. i don't feel comfortable in my own body anymore.

i've switched to wearing sweats and hoodies. it keeps David from punishing me more and it covers up the scars.

god, there's so many scars.

this is the worst house i've been in and trust me, i've seen some shit. they don't even let me eat. and if Blair sees me eat anything at school she tells them.

sometimes she lies to them, just so i can get hit and i officially completely hate myself. i haven't talked to Beth or my parents since i was placed in this new house.

the only time i'm allowed to eat is when i'm on the edge of passing out.

they even check my weight to make sure i didn't eat.

Blair didn't come to school today because Makayla wanted to take her shopping or something.

i shut my locker and go to buy a water as everyone else buys food.

god i want to eat so bad.

a frown settles on my lips and i jump when i feel a tap on my shoulder.

"come eat lunch with us, we've been blown off by you long enough." Lanai pulls me by my hand over to the group and i quietly wince to where she can't hear me.

Blair sliced my hand open a few days ago as a punishment for drinking her apple juice.

i was about to pass out though and i would much rather her cut my hand open rather than try to fight off David. as we approach the table, my eyes lock with Billie's before i look down.

"how do you have a hoodie on? it's like 102 outside." Zoe was fanning herself as she asks me the question. 

i even knew how hot it was but i wasn't taking this hoodie off.

"i'm pretty cold actually." i shrug my shoulders at Zoe and the only available seat is next to Billie.

"are you hungry? Lani told us you were gonna eat lunch with us." Billie takes some food out of a bag and sits it in front of me.

it was Chick-Fil-A. on any other occasion i would have devoured it, but i couldn't help but this about my foster home i'm in.

"Eva?"

"huh?" i snap back into reality and see the girl in front of me give me a worried smile.

"you okay? you look tired."

"i'm fine." to avoid talking, i start eating the food and i realize how hungry i am. a tear even slips out of my eye.

i end up finishing the sandwich, the fries, and the drink that was bought for me.

"are you still hungry princess?" Billie sips her drink.

i missed that so much.

hesitantly, i shake my head no and Billie puts a box of nuggets in front of me. she goes back to her conversation and i eat the nuggets.

soon, the bell rings and i walk away from the group when i see Blair's friends take a picture of me.

i make my way to the bathroom, putting two fingers down my throat. all the food i just ate comes up and the sight of it makes me throw up more.

i feel a shoulder bump into mine as i leave the bathroom and i see it's Blair's friends.

"have fun at home." they laugh, walking off and i stand there scared to death.

i went against way too many rules, who knows what they'll do to me.

A/N
what do we think abt this 😪
and i did a double update cause why the hell not. and shit is about to go DOWN real life be ready😴