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Everything Thing Will be Ohk Right?

Kathy: Kehlani uhh im so sorry... We tried...our best... Makayla.... Makayla is gone... She lost a lot of blood but the baby is safe... Do u wanna go see ur little baby girl

I stared crying I .. Cant believe it my friend she has a daughter who needs her mom uhh everything swormed in my head then i thought of the time me and Makayla were picking names Adeya Naomi popped into my head. Then my mind went blank and straight back to my situation at hand makayla
god pls take care of Makayla for me.
Kathy trying to calm me down  asked a nurse passing by to bring me water the nurse i arrived with some water i sat back down on the bench kathy kneeled down in front of me

Kathy:im so sorry kehlani we're still trying to find the actual causes of her  death ..........
Oh fuck being professional
Listen I'm so sorry bestie i wish i knew how to reverse time ohk I wish I had seen this in her scans and tests I'm truly sorry keh

Kathy came in for a hug and I hugged her back i couldn't blame her for the situation we all didn't see it coming and thats why it hurts me the most is I couldn't see her i couldn't spend time with her i was always busy and coming home late . All she wanted was taco bell with me and I forgot about that .. how stupid am I.
Kathy and I hugged for awhile until i became numb it felt as if  I was elevated off the ground the toe i had hit on the door coming in was no longer sore i could not feel it I was tired of sitting down and sulking i looked at Kathy and stood up and asked kathy to take me to her daughter we walked towards the room where they kept all the babies she pointed to Makayla's daughter

Kehlani: she is so beautiful just like her mother and she kinda looks like me

Kathy: yes im glad she doesn't look like tht Bastard of a father she has yeah she kinda does look like u I wonder why
Uhm keh there's also another thing

Kehlani: wht is on ur mind Kathy

Kathy:Uhm Kayla asked me to tell u tht she wants u to take care of Adeya for her and be her mom don't tell her about makayla being her mom makayla says she wants her daughter to live a normal life with u not thinking she is adopted

Kehlani:So ur telling me she said she doesn't want to be remembered she doesn't want her child to know her

Kathy:that's wht she said and she was begging not even asking

Kehlani: how did you know her name did makayla tell u tht

Kathy: yeah she survived long enough to hold her baby for a minute and tell us her name and the baby ur look at is Adeya Niaomi Parrish she listed u as her father

Kehlani: a tear fell from my eyes slid down my face and before it could drip down to my coat Kathy wiped my face Kathy got pinged and had to leave I continued looking at Adeya
Why did she look like me ? Why did Makayla not want to be remembered? Why did she have to die? How would I tell her fans and her family?  Especially how would Teyana handle this knowing she wasn't  there for her best friend when she needed her most ? How must I cope without my main man around?another tear slid down my face and I felt a chill bur it wasn't an unsettling chill then it felt like I heard makayla say please take care of her and urself I love u and then the chill disappeared wht tht was weird was she actually by me
No I'm going crazy because I miss her already I sat on the chair and watched Adeya all night until I felt a nudge I jolted awake Kathy was standing there telling me to follow her I stood up and followed her to her office she went up to her closet and opened it up and a whole other room was in there it was her bedroom she offered me the second bed I shook my head no as I don't know what her and Edwardo ve doing on these beds she laughed like she knew wht I was thinking then she said no I clean and get the room and the office sterilized everyday and it's clean I promise I walked up to the single bed duvet covers lilac Makayla's favorite color and there was a white teddy bear on the bed I took off my coat and hung it on the bed rail the Kathy said there's a change of clothes in the cupboard u can also hang your coat there I walked to this olden day brown cupboard with carved flower patterns I opened it found a pair of check pj's I then hung my coat in the cupboard by the railing said I closed the cupboard and walked into the bathroom and changed I walked i out of the bathroom and Kathy was already in her bed I felt like I need a hug so instead of climbing into my bed I climbed into Kathy's bed which was a king sizes bed she turned around to look at me and she looked at my eyes she brought me in for a hug and all my emotions I didn't know I was holding in let lose like a wave crashing down at shore Kathy rubbed my back and said "I'm here for u keh I'm not going anywhere".I finally let lose i then started saying if I had stayed with her when she wanted me to, if I had gone out today with her and not forgotten, if I had just taken a break of work and made sure she was ohk, if I had drove to the hospital quick enough maybe she would of been ohk. Kathy wiped my tears and kissed my cheek and said it's not ur fault and went back to hugging me I eventually got exhausted from crying and I cried myself to sleep the next morning I woke up to an empty bed, my body ached for some weird reason my head hurts like someone smacked a baseball bat into it but nothing hurt like the ache in my heart I went to the bathroom to go shower and as the water touched my body it felt like a
Phoenix's tear drop in a wound an instant healing . My shower Playlist playing in the background while I sang my heart out Luther Vandross being barely heard over my singing
I got out did my routine then grabbed a gown and wrapped it around me I went to the cupboard and the clothes tht were in there where Edward's I suppose but Edward does wear like this either way I grabbed some baggy black cargos some black All Star Chuck Taylors  and a white tee and a lather jacket at tht moment came in Kathy she looked at me then was like this is all urs I had brought them for Ed but he did want to change his style oh and me and him split up I had him tied on there yesterday as a punishment for cheating but I'm ohk um after u done we can go get food out and baby formula and nappies ect I replied with an ohk tye thought of the baby ripped the healing scab in my heart I went back to the bathroom and got dressed when I came out Kathy had also changed out of her doctors clothes she was dressed in white fitting cargos some white long sleeve crop top and over tht she wore a black mesh knitted crop top she had her hair lose and straight she had her white Chuck Taylors on. she was the opposite of me I was wearing black with the cornrows Makayla did , she was wearing white with lose hair I grabbed my leather bag