she just wanna make music

BREATHTAKING

It's been a month since tht weekend I am now back in LA ...at least I have settled down again after the hectic shit happening me and Victoria have been chilling a lot and I think she's warming up to me cause I swear this chick is gayyyy she sits on my lap kisses my cheek and when I say cheek I mean right next to my pair of plumed juicy soft kissable lips she decided to kiss the corner and say I'm straight like wht the fuck...she's mental I promise u I hear adeya crying and she's crying loud i try to get her to calm down but she won't I have and aching headache and I'm still grieving Ma..kayla...And Adeya does not make it easier Adeya Crys louder I try to feed her milk she doesn't want i change her nappies she doesn't need nappy changing i give her a toy she throws it ... I'm now getting agitated and sad i start crying and Adeya's crying above tht I try to shush her she gets louder i feel like I'm going insane I call Victoria and she picks up on the first ring.

Kehlani: Vic pls. ....(sobs) come over ... I can't Adeya is driving me crazy and I don't know what to do anymore I've done anything but she wont shut up shes been crying for the past 1hr and 30mins ...please...

Victoria: Don't worry I'm coming can u try something for me can u grab tht teething toy tht I put in the freezer put it her mouth ..can u do tht for me im on my way Keh give me about 10 minutes

Kehlani: (sobs voice raspy and soft)
Thanks Victoria i don't know what I'd do without you really and I will do and a teething toy is tht blue squishy thing right the one tht looks like a tiny fidget spinner right?

Victoria: (lets out a cute giggle) Yeah the tiny fidget spinner looking thing in the freezer keh I also need u to breathe ur panicking and ur taking quicker breaths which will cause ur panic attacks and will be a problem

Kehlani: im trying Vic...I'm trying

Victoria: and thts all I need is for u to try im now very close so grab tht teether and give it to her make sure it's in her mouth

Kehlani: ohk ... I ..will do (breath laboured)

Victoria: Kehlani BREATHE dumbass

Kehlani: im...... try..ing ...

Victoria: I'll kick ur ass if u faint before I get there...

Kehlani: Hurry ...I can't ... find my pump...please

Victoria: Kehlani put me on speaker put ur hands up in the sky reach high ... And FUCKING BREATHE inhale exhale bby

Kehlani: ...I'm..trying (gasping for air worsen)

I hear a car pull up I carry Adeya's loud ass outside Victoria runs and grabs Adeya and putting the teether in her mouth while I was fighting for my life with this fucking panic attack she puts adeya in the house and comes back out to me and kisses me softly her smooth soft lips press up against mine she snakes her arms around my neck ...WHAT THE FUCK my brain feels like it's imploding i don't kiss back at first cause I was shocked but I soften up and kiss back my hand sliding to the side of her neck as I deepen the kiss my mouth explores her mouth liking the sweet taste it comes across i can feel myself needing air but I don't want it to end cause ik after this she's not gonna let me kiss her I continue exploring my other hand on her bare waist pulling her impossibly closer almost like I was trying to merge us and her arms were around my neck pulling me closer i dig my fingers into her waist as I needed to breathe but I didn't wanna stop and I guess she noticed so she pulled away ... she takes a deep breath as she trys to catch her breath...I look at her eyes my hand still in it's place ...my breath stabilizes
"Thanks Monét" she just giggles her soft giggle filling my ears ...it's been awhile since I've felt this way...ever since ....Teyana ... anyways fuck tht hoe. ..as I was gonna say a smug comment about her kissing me all the time Adeya crys and ruins the moment Victoria walks inside the house and im left outside with only my thoughts and the night sky...what is this straight girl doing to me ...why am I falling will she hurt me just like Teyana did ...or will we be a happy ever after...I still think about her...Teyana ... I wonder does she think of me I mumble as I look at the starts ...I'm pulled out of my thoughts when I hear Victoria Yell with her sweet soft voice "KEHLANI ASHLEY PARRISH IF U CATCH A COLD IM BEATING UR ASS" I chuckled " I'm coming Monèt just needed a second" I say as I walk towards the house ....I hope ur thinking of me like I am ...sometimes atleast...