Bitter Truth

Chapter 3

Pls ignore mistakes(⁠✿⁠^⁠‿⁠^⁠)

Taehyung's POV

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It was then I began to lose my title as the topper . I couldn't catch up with the studies since I started to ditch classes to hangout with them ,to random clubs ,parties to where ever they want me to accompany.

I thought this is how boys should be.

I was trying to become very comfortable with them.( Struggling I think)

It was during the way off to class ,I first saw our senior Lee Minjun .

He was so handsome that every boys and girls in uni had a crush on him. He was very intelligent and at that time very active in college organisations . Nice person well mannered as well.

Who wouldn't want him?

I am sure he will treat his partner with so much respect and care

He passed a smile to me, and to be frank I was in cloud nine.

Rumours were saying that he had already a girlfriend in his class .

Only if I had a chance ?

But my insecure mind told me otherwise

Who would want a pathetic looser like you?

Atleast look at urself in the mirror for once?

I tried to distract my mind from these useless thoughts

As from the rumours he is straight.
Nowhere he would want relationship with someone like me .

Like everyone else he would think of me a sinner .

Yes I am a gay.

But I don't think I am a sinner

It's a sexual orientation, nothing to be shamed of.

And I am of all proud to one.

I realised my love for men since my high  school days itself.

I couldn't even understand myself when I  find a boy cute in my school days.

I was like oh is this allowed?

Even dreamt of being of being kissed and embraced by him .

I was like ,God I am committing a sin.

But reading books related to various sexual orientations , I discovered this is normal to have an attraction  with same sex ,that I am not committing a crime.

When my family came out to know this, they were very disappointed.

They had no idea about gays lesbians and queer .

Totally opposed the idea of men-men loving , getting married and living together.

They asked how I am going to give them a heir If I marry a man.

I didn't replied nor even argued

Thats true . I won't be able to give them a heir.

But what is the point of marrying a woman for her children If I couldn't give her what she actually deserves?

Isnt that cheating?

Never in my life I would want that.

I Waited patiently for a positive response from my parents.

And it did.They supported me for what I am.

I am glad that I don't need to go through extreme punishments to remove my homosexuality.

Like normal people I used to have crushes here and there. Be it a movie star, singer or even random boys I met on the way to college .

It was all just one time crushes, nothing more.

Lee Minjun as I said before was one among them.

Except one ,who made me feel the intensity and purity of first love.

First love is always special .

It is always the innocent and pure form of love.

No matter how hard you try , you will never stop missing your first love.

Do you want to know that?

Okay I will save it for the next time hopefully

✨✨Continuation of college life✨✨

Everything was going fine until the second year result came out and I hopelessly failed in 3 subjects.

My new friends appreciated me .

This is how it should be ,this is heroism you are now now officially became the member of  legends ,they said.

I laughed with them , thought I was finally getting accepted, but my inner self couldn't handle my failure.

I couldn't imagine the disappointment my parents would feel if they came to know this.

But the slight acceptance was everything for me  than the pain caused by this failure.

Isnt it the way it should me?

To gain something you have to lose something too?

Or Am I wrong?

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Taehyung is so naive right ?

Sorry to say , he should be like this in this story.

He is so desperate to have friends, I think.

He lost himself somewhere to be like his friends.