My Baby Bird (HawksxVillian Reader)

10.fuckn' blood

(Vid not mine also this chapter contains self harm if you want skip the parts where it has it other than that enjoy)
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Y/n pov:
After my burst out at toga I felt bad and the whole time I walked home my thoughts wouldn't let me forget it and I hated it so right when I got home I was about to head straight to my room until I saw shiggy bleeding from his arm and leg and without a word I opened the new pack of bandages and help him wrap his wounds while also being careful not to touch his hand with all five fingers after I went upstairs to my room and once inside I decided to just take a nap which was a horrible idea...
'In dream'
'I was looking around because today was bring your kid to work day for my dad and the other pros wanted to meet me so dad told me that he was gonna work and that I would go but stay far away from him and that I should just look around and being the 5 year old I am I did just that until I got pushed into a crowed which lead to being pushed into a court room but this one was different there was a guy who I could only assume was a villain was being strapped down in a chair with things connected all over him and after a few minutes they started saying things like 'any last words' which the guy replied with 'I just wanted a place in this world where I wasn't looked as a villain because of my quirk because this all started with one filth less hero telling me that my quirk was villainous and ever since my family my friends everybody looked at me differently why should hero's say who's a villain and who's not' and with that they pulled a switch and he just sat there shaking with his eyes turning white and I stood there watching with wide eyes and tears streaming down my face I tried looking away but I couldn't I was frozen scared shaking myself once he stopped shaking I ran out the room crying finally being able to process what happened that was the first time I've ever seen death and I couldn't stop thinking what if Toga was in his spot what if Dabi, Shiggy, Mamagiri, big sis Magne, Twice, and I couldn't save any of them...'
*TW INCLUDES SELF HARM TRIGGER WARNING*
I shot open my eyes shaking from the dream shaking and tears streaming down my face I quickly take of my mask because my breathing was to quick 'come one y/n breath, BREATH! Calm down y/n' none of it was working so I got up grabbed my pocket kn!fe and went into my bathroom locking the door taking off my glove and bandages and opening the kn!fe and putting it against my arm sliding it across I repeated this process a couple of times before calming down I felt light headed so I sat there for a bit before cleaning up putting on new bandages along with my glove before going to bed again and this time all my thought's disappeared which I was very very thankful for and with that I fell into a nice quiet slumber...
*TW YOU MAY CONTINUE READING*
~The next day~
Y/n pov:
After getting into regular clothes and put my mask on I went downstairs seeing toga back to her usual cheery self but I couldn't help but feel guilty so I went up to her "hey toga I just wanted to apologize and say how sorry I am for blowing out on you like that and how it's ok if you don't forgive me just know how sorry I am" I say bowing and after a few seconds of silence I decide that she probably will never forgive me and I wouldn't blame her for it so I decide to give up standing up straight again before getting knocked down by toga hugging me and I was surprised at first cause of how strong she was like my mask almost fell off cause of compact but that was soon replaced with me hugging her back and after that we just had a good time and after a few days we got to watch the sports festival and that girl who we saw at the cafe actually improved and got stronger at what I could tell because the pick hair girl was shooting bigger amounts of acid out of her hands then what she shot at me and to be honest I was kinda proud. Why? I don't really know myself but then we saw this Midoriya kid along with Endeavor the number 2 pro hero's son Shoto Todoroki but while watching their fight I looked at Dabi and noticed that he also has a fire quirk so what could he be thinking about Shoto's fight since he made a huge fire blast at the broccoli haired kid and without thinking I read his mind with my mind reading quirk but was in so much shock that my eyes widened at his words 'nice little bro great to see he's improving I'm glad to see him doing better if only I knew how my other siblings are doing would they even believe me...would they even recognized me...eh to much fucking thinking I'm starving' I quickly stop my quirk and look around and let out a sigh I relief that nobody saw me use my quirk an continue to watch the festival like nothing happened at least that's how it looked like on the outside while inside I was freaking out thinking about every little scenario that could lead to Dabi being a Todoroki. 'I mean he could be adopted? But how would he still have a fire quirk if he's adopted? What's his mom's quirk? Well if Shoto has a fire AND ice quirk his mom must have an ice quirk since his father has a fire quirk. And that would make sense because his quirk is blue flames, blue like ice, and flames as in fire, could that be it?' I was quickly snapped out of my thoughts when I felt a hand grab my left arm and winced in pain quickly pulling my arm back to see Twice recalling his arm quickly and everyone looks at me "what!? Why are you all looking at me like that!?" They all just look at something with surprised looks on their faces and when I look down to see the arm Twice shook it had blood staining my long sleeve and running down my fingers which you were able to see from my glove I quickly get up and run upstairs while cursing to myself "fuckn' blood"

Word count:1150
Heeeeeyyyy sorry for all the trigger warnings it's just to make the story a bit more angst but anyway that's all for today bye kiddies!!!