Yes, Mr.Fushiguro

bits of the past

time has barely moved you've been standing in front of the tall man for about 2 minutes now.

staring intensely.

10 seconds go by.
20 seconds.
30,40,50.

and finally, another full minute.

"why do you wanna see me so bad toji?"
you say breaking the silence the man's eyes soften you haven't seen him like this before. finally deciding to really take in his features.

did he look like this at the restaurant earlier?
no? right..

"i'm sorry y/n but i can't stand this distant between us"
he says. softly. this was the first time you've ever heard him talk like this. the cold death stare he usually wears was now resembling a slight frown.

"Toji, this isn't right we shouldn't do this"
your voice shakes, ending in a bit of a crack.

"i know"
"if you know why do you keep calling me to come see you?"
"i miss you"

hearing the "i miss you" weakened you. you missed this man so much, even though you both weren't together you both just couldn't stay away from eachother.

the sneaky kisses at the office.
the late night calls.
the random hook ups in the bathrooms of restaurants while meetings are being held.

you missed it. you missed HIM.

throwing yourself into his arms he catches you and lets out a breath like a sigh of relief.

he would never tell you but he was worried you'd walk away for good. but he wasn't going to allow it he needed you at least one more night.

he needed you like his life depended on it.

"Toji, we can't be sneaking around anymore. what are we what is this"

you ask, he stares at you.
knotting his brows together. he wasn't sure what it was.

was it love?
lust?
a past time?
what could it really be the tall man wasn't sure.

"I want us to spend the night together"
he says.

spending the night together soemthing you both haven't even had the chance to do. each time something would pop up.

you nod. you knew this wasn't right. well of course it wasn't he's a married man. you are in the home of a married man when his wife could come home at anytime and catch you both.
but for some reason you didn't care if you got caught maybe if you did he'd finally leave or she'd leave him and you could finally have him.

LISTEN TO YOURSELF RN Y/N.

walking into the house he tells you that you both will have the house to yourselves for the next day. relieved a bit that no one would be coming to the house.

"you thirsty?hungry?"
he asks as you take a seat on the couch in the living room.

"no"
you call out, a clink of a glass can be heard from the kitchen. another clink and the sound of a bottle opening.

"i'm going to have a drink"
he says as he makes his way towards you holding a glass with the same round ice cubes from last time and a dark brownish liquor swishing around with the ice each time he brought it closer to his lips.

"is she away again?"
you ask, not sure why it wasn't any of your business and you knew that but you couldn't help to blurt it out as you looked around the room and saw photos of "her" with what seems like family members of hers littered around.

but to your surprise none with Toji or Megumi.

"she is, she said it's a last minute business trip but i'm pretty sure it's another one of her shopping trips"
he says unbothered. as if he's used to this as if she's away so much it just feels natural to him.