Im not scared, Im not angry, Im not sad, I just dont feel nothing...
This should be used as an diary...but I end up putting a way too much makeup in my pretty words...
Its weird when you cant name your emotions
When you feel totaly perfectly completly fine for hours, but right when you stand alone with yourself you dont understand from where your tears come from
Nothing seems to make sense, to be important....
Even the sunlight dont seem to have a taste anymore...
And again in a long while, i prayed to the moon again...
I dont know if she heard me, but she looked down with her kind gaze...
Her pale light shone again for a second before other eyes laid on me...
And i got scared again and left...
After seconds of ignoring and letting it go i stoped in the same old questions...
The same old questions that almost made this diary stop existing...
The same old questions that almost put me my dreamy end...
and as the imature child I am...i belived again that i would be free by such a expensive price...
and i wouldint be able to even come back to the place i once called hell...
And im stuck here.....
Im not lieing...im almost 16 and i did any 16's stuff till here...
no, i never went out with my friends at night...
i...actually never went out....
thats what i miss?
i miss outside...
yes maybe thats what i miss...
not all the memories i had outside....no....no! I miss them too...
I have no idea what am i writting again....
thats how it works...
"But i could just come back and see!"
Yea, but i wouldint be truely....right?
thats how really happens...thats how i forget...
it started with small details....words...moments....and now even her face seem so blurr...
and again, i wasnt talking about this...
Idk why im writting...
maybe because i dont wanna write in my diary, cuz if i do ill hear them again...
maybe because i finally can stay here and put out for others? maybe someone can save me?
maybe because...i can?
I want?
i cant be safe...im this dirty hell....
VOCÊ ESTÁ LENDO
. *ੈ⭐༘⋆. Starlit's Little Diary . *ੈ⭐༘⋆.
Poetry"You don't have to hold it yourself!" ⋆- R-really? "Yea! Maybe someone else wanna know too..." ⋆- You don't wanna know? "Actually I don't know...wait, know what?" ⋆- Ah.... (My little online diary, where I share feelings, toughts and more/ in PT+ENG)
