i want you to | dthang

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marleni's doby |
                                 river park towers | the bronx

i wake up to the sun hitting me in my face, i groan and rub my face. i look next to me and don't see dthang, i felt something come up my throat. i ran to the bathroom and kneeled down throwing up in the toilet " you good?" i hear dthang say as he was in the shower, i wipe my mouth " yea i think the food from yesterday made me sick." i said flushing the

toilet and brushing my teeth, he hopped out the shower. i walked back to the bed and laid down again wrapped around the sheets " where you going?" i asked him as he put on some pants and his monclear jacket " im just gonna go to the stu and probably go do something else." he says spraying perfume

he came over to my side of the bed and gave me a kiss " imma be back." he said closing the room door, as soon as he left i had to throw up again. i ran to the bathroom again throwing up. i immediately thought of something i would of never thought of.

what if i was.. pregnant.

.. 3 hrs later

i walk up the stairs and finally reach the door, out of breath and having nauseas. i opened the door still no since of dthang, perfect timing. i went to the bathroom with a black bag in my hand. i dig into the bag pulling out a pregnancy test.

maybe this was dumb of me but i missed my period this week.. while me and dthang were having unprotected sex. i pulled down my pants and pee'd on the test, i wiped and got up waiting.

i left the bathroom, letting the test sit. i bit my nails and drank some water trying to cool myself down, my heart kept pounding very hard and fast. i tried not to over think, if i was pregnant what would dthang think about this. 

i went back to the bathroom, and flipped over the test, my heart sank.. positive. i sat down on the toilet with my hand over my mouth, i tucked my hair behind my ear " shit, shit shit." i said tapping my leg up and down, i heard a door open. I quickly threw away the pregnancy test box away and tucked the test behind my back.

" marleni's!!" i heard him yell as i wiped my tears, I walked out seeing iys " hey girl" she said hugging me as dthang left the door again, I grabbed her arm and sat her down " i have to tell u something.." i said as she looked at me worried, she scrunched her eyebrows, i grabbed the test from behind me.

she looked at it and then at me " are.. are you being serious?" she said as i nodded, she started to get excited and started to scream. i grabbed her and put my finger on my lips " your pregnant with him!" she said as I rubbed my forehead

" don't tell anyone about this please.. please.." I said and she nodded " oh em gee, imagine if it's a girl and she comes out with dirty blonde curly hair like yours?" she said and i smiled, i don't think i could be a mom. especially right now " okay imma have to go tell me if anything goes well." she said hugging me and giving me a kiss on the cheek

she left and i hid the test in my bag, I decided to go to the doctors. maybe the test was lying, I grabbed my phone and dialed the doctors " hello, do you guys have walk ins.. yes i just want to talk to doctor karen." i said asking for my doctor, i hanged up the phone and grabbed my bag and my car keys that iys dropped off

i shut the door walking down the hall, hopefully dthang doesn't see me. i walked down the stairs to the lobby, looking around seeing dthang. shit he saw me.. " yo! where you goin?" he yelled jogging towards me, I awkwardly smiled at him " im going to the doctors,  need to get my blood drawn." I said as he stared into my soul " alright, be safe." he said

giving me a kiss and slapping my ssa as I turned around, I quickly walked to my car. i leave the towers and look at my rear view making sure nothing suspicious happens or anyone notices me

the doctors office wasn't far from the towers, i get behind this cab and try to relax my breathing, maybe the test is not giving me the right results right.. you know sometimes women get the wrong results on these types of test. i shake my head and get out my car walking into the office

" hi, i called to see doctor karen." i said repeatedly tapping my fingers on the counter, she pointed to the door and unlocked it for me. i went in and walked towards her office " hey.. marleni's." she said as i smiled and sat down on the bed

" so what did u wanna talk about?" she says as i take the test out my bag " i took a test.. and it came back positive im just not sure if this is right." i say and she puts some gloves on grabbing the test. she looked at it " high chances are this test isn't lying about the results, if u want u can take another one." she said as I nodded and grabbed the test.

i exited the room and went down the hall to the bathroom, i blessed my self and did my business again. i covered the test with the wrapper and wash my hand again, i then left the bathroom and went back into the room. karen smiled at me and i handed her the test " okay we will wait a few minutes." she says checking my

heart pressure and stuff like that " how many times did u have unprotected sex." she says typing on her computer " uhh.. probably 2 or 3 times." i say and she goes back to typing in her computer

" last time u had ur period." she said " last month.." I say and she grabs the test, she puts on her glasses and hands me the test " these test don't lie, your pregnant.  high chances are you got pregnant on the first time u had intercourse" she said and i sighed " thank you karen." i said grabbing my bag and leaving the room

.. 6pm

i had just gotten back from enny's i had told everyone that i was pregnant with dthang. i felt more tired than ever, i laid down and just wanted to go to sleep " marleni's" i hear dthang yell and i sigh scooting up and pressing my back against the head board, he comes in with red eyes, he was high.

i looked at him and he came over to me and started kissing me, i pushed him off me " bru what's wrong." he said as i shook my head, he kissed his teeth " i dont have the energy.." i said and he puts on his blunt " why? u fuckin otha nigga's?" he said grabbing me, i scrunched my eyebrows and moved his hands off me

" what no? im just not in the mood." i said pushing him and he sighed " tell me who is it." he said grabbing my jaw, I aggressively pushed him back " don't fucking touch me like that" I said slapping him, he clenched his jaw and left the room slamming the door

i shook my head and got back on the bed, I don't know when I was planning to tell him. definitely not right now by the way he is acting

fuck no, I decided to go back to my apartment. I really did not want to see him right now, I grabbed my bag and I put my clothes in his closet.

.. E 194th street

i had just woken up from a nap, I looked at my tv that was left on and it was 9pm. i grabbed some towels and went across from my room to the bathroom, hearing lee blasting music im surprised hes home right now

i hopped into the shower, as i soon as i got in my phone started to ring. i groaned and opened the shower curtain aggressively, "dthanggz incoming call" i rolled my eyes and ignored his 12th call of the night.

so I know this chapter is small but trust the others will be more drama