Determination (Gojo x Reader)

Intro

You'd lived a comfortable, safe life. You'd been through your fair share of hardships, which were out of your control. But what you could control you did, doing the best to kept yourself safe. Never truly opening up with others, taking calculated risks, being the kind and reliable friend. Sitting back and watching others take what they wanted, wishing you could feel the courage to do the same. You'd only recently started to feel more courageous,wanting to be more selfish, take more risks. Your heart was big and you were ready to grant it the permission to feel fully, to love fully.

It was now your senior year of college and you were ready to fully go for it this year, no regrets. You'd been practically in love with Satoru Gojo since your first day of freshman year, and yet you barely uttered a few words to him in the past few years. You knew you were like all the rest, nothing special, just another gojo fan girl. You didn't show it though, as much as you admired him you were far too shy and reserved to throw yourself at him. All though you were somewhat jealous of the girls that could, they could express their feelings and go after what they wanted. But It was different for you, you didn't want him because of his looks, all though they certainly made you want him more. You wanted to get to know him, on a real level. You wanted to be a part of his world, and surrounding him in the hallway wasn't going to achieve that. It was a simple moment but the kindness he showed you in your first meeting stuck with you, he felt so warm, like sunlight and yet he wasn't that simple. You could feel the invisible cloud of burden strung above his head. His aura pulled you in and entranced you, you immediately were hooked on him, hoping to know more. Of course he was also the most gorgeous man you'd ever seen, his features were unreal and you'd never seen hair so white and eyes so blue, except for on your cat of course. Everything about him pulled you in, he was like a flame and you a moth, only you'd never allowed yourself to get too close to his fire. Scared to get burnt, but not anymore. You were ready to dive face first into that fire if it meant you could be apart of his world, and know the real Satoru.

You were tired of being subtle, you were subtle your whole life. Dressing up, hoping to pass him on the way to class and yet never talking to him purposely. How could he notice you in a crowd if you'd never given him a reason to. He always kept to himself anyways, headphones in, sunglasses on, completely disengaged with his surroundings. He presented himself as the mysterious type and that only drew you in more. You wondered what he thought of as he walked to class, hands often in his pockets, keeping hisself reserved and close to himself. You wondered if he was similar to you at all, keeping himself safe from all the hurt in the world out of his control. You'd only ever seen him express himself more around his friend Suguru Geto. It reminded you of how you were able to fully express yourself only with your best friend, Nana. You'd never felt more comfortable and more yourself than with her, you weren't reserved and to yourself you were loud, talkative and unafraid to be you. It made you feel comfortable to know that maybe you weren't so different from him after all, despite feeling worlds away from him.

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This is a more relatable fanfic, no sorcery just drama, angst, romance and ofc yearning for Gojo as we all here do. I hope you guys enjoy :) I haven't written in a while so I apologize if it's not my best work. Hopefully you guys will bear with me and stick it out through the end!

P.S~ I also completely didn't plan this either so I'm going along with it with you guys, in honor of Gege LOL