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MILK POV
She dances gracefully, she smiles beautifully and how she literally make my heart flutters everytime I was asked "How am I?". How could I ever forget our first meeting, first laugh, first hug, first fight, first tears, first confession, first holding hands, and first kiss, I hope you'll remember our memories together and how we were dancing under the rain. I will always love, the only you and your name, Love Pattranite, slipping out from my lips, the desires and longing for your hands to touch me and your playful attitude when you're alone with me, you're shy and introvert so you always clinging unto me but definitely I loved it, your warmth, I'm longing about it that I cried a river just to held me in your arms again but that was just a dream for me.
I went to View and June's condo just to bring cans of beer and take home seasoned fried chicken which Love enjoyed eating every night when we're hanging out on her apartment, she loves when I'm drunk because it makes her laugh with my goofiness but now I enjoyed it better alone but these time I've tried to forget and enjoy it with some company and my two best friends who are ready for my drama. I really love her.
"You really are coming, huh?! I thought you already forget about us after three years of crying her ass?!" The straight forward View opened her door for me when I push their doorbell ignoring her never ending nagging as I saw June came from the kitchen wearing her apron before hugging her tall girlfriend makes me want to hug my love too.
"Of course, I came for June." I tease making her face frown as she glare at me but still I ignored her and spoke with June instead. Yes, she's my first crush at school but I knew she had eyes for View already before Love came to my life. She's quite a good catch and everyone mesmerized by her cute antics and beauty but as a possessive girlfriend, View always hanging out with us and even glared through everyone who tried to hit on June and a good scolding came after.
"Come inside. I'll already cook your favorites just to make you feel at home." She's very kind to me because how she knew about me having crush on her but View shows her support but don't get me wrong, I had no romantic feelings on her it's just sisterly love for both of us. View sacrifice her medicine course just to be with June so she settled being a assistant director for commercials instead while June graduate as a pediatrician and now she works in a small hospital in town where I also worked as a medical doctor. I forgot that my Love works as a fashion designer and always burnout, she made a name in the industry and almost neglect our relationship in the long run but we worked it out in between kisses and fights. Clearly, we get back together but many things happened, we're not our old delf because we both know many changes occur in our love and that's inevitable for almost couple in the world, we fight and made up, until one day, she left me for good, she died in a tragic car accident where I was the one who drives. I blamed myself for everything that I didn't listen to her that I'm too sleepy to drive us on our way home, the last time I saw her smiling was that one tragic night where I picked her up from her office, and I prepared everything for a major event where I will finally propose to her and ViewJune are the ones who prepared them while I'm being nervous through my line, I wanted her to be my wife like I can finally settle with her, our pet cats, Sugus and Jaguar are sure missing their mom, every morning they called for her but we're alone in our home now because their mommy left them already as well as my heart she took away from me.
"You alright? Do you still think of her after 3 years?" June asked with her worried face while she took my hands on her, she knows how much I love my girlfriend and now that she's gone, I'm a living dead now. I tried my best to forget my first and last love and the way I always smell her scent from June because they shared the same scent from a famous perfume brand, painful memories came back and it was too much for me that I held myself back to take my own life.
"Today was her death anniversary." I choked from my tears because I couldn't held back from the pain where I lose my last love. I stopped being a doctor for now and focused on making money from arts, I should focus on myself but I much more focus in my artworks, it's definitely no use to forget someone dear to you knowing it's very tragic to remember.
"You should spend your night here." I just nod as a response from June and she quickly left me to fix my bed from their guest room. I open one of the can and drink it almost forgot about View's existence as she stood there watching my pathetic self but what can I do.
" You should sleep for now." View said while she went inside the room to help out June. I was left alone again as I'd finished one beer i just a go. I almost felt dizzy so I bend back to the sofa and tried to sleep for a short nap while waiting for my heart to ease the pain from the past. I should let myself succumb into a deep sleep while waiting for another day to come.
To my last love, I love you.
The end.
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With Love,
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