The Choice Bonjovi|| Engl.

Chapter XXI• into the unknown

Mixed feelings, poor June had inside her, perhaps too many and confused, she didn't know if the good part prevailed, the one that only thought of Jon's good seeing him so happy and fulfilled with himself, or the bad one, that is, that part that he would have done anything to get her away from the only person who did him any good..

She had certainly never felt something like this before, she was afraid of all this, love was playing a trick on her, she knew she loved Jon, but this love was leading her to be a person she didn't want to be. absolutely ..

But he was stronger than her, he didn't partially accept that evident happiness, actually yes, but he didn't accept that it wasn't because of him, as if the villain of the story was Arianna and she was just a victim..

Poor deluded girl, who was nothing else, she had created all this, she hadn't stepped up when she had to do it..
She was more and more convinced that instead of that girl, she really had to be there, but she wasn't there...

Selfish ..
He was becoming selfish, he wanted them to break up to have free rein, he didn't know if it would happen..
But what if it hadn't happened?!
He certainly wouldn't have been a lover, since he knew well when Jon was loyal to the person next to him..

Dark and horrible feelings that clouded young June's mind day after day, without asking permission..
But in fact it was she who opened the door for him, it wasn't right, but it was like this now, she could do something to change everything..
But the trouble was, he didn't want to do it..

Jon wasn't hers and this blinded her with jealousy to the point of wanting something she couldn't have..
And she knew that although nothing was owed in life, she wanted that to be able to await him even at the expense of others..

Madness..
It was absolute madness, which he didn't even notice anymore, he thought so, and he would never stop doing so..

By now that sense of absolute chaos clouded his mind without being able to say a single positive word and as much as Chanel tried to make her change her mind, she knew full well that she could never succeed, and she was worried, but she would have stopped her by any means..
Just to allow Jon not to suffer any further..

If she could go back, maybe she wouldn't have gotten that far, but now it was impossible, looking at that happiness, she didn't like it, yet Jon hadn't changed towards her..

But it was that sense of friendship that bothered her a lot, she didn't accept just being a friend...
When it could have been something else, something else like his most hidden fantasies and unspoken dreams were..

But those dreams had been abandoned the same day she heard Jon talk to Richie about Arianna and there everything was changed once again..

Into the unknown..
Yes, she would have thrown herself into the unknown just to know what the future had for her and if Jon would have been part of this future that could be distant, or close..
But what if Jon wouldn't be a part of her life like she wanted?!

There they were, it wouldn't have been simple, indeed unfair was the word that would have crowned such a disgusting dream..

He looked at the photos, as if they were just a distant and unclear memory in his mind, or maybe it was just his imagination..

An almost fortuitous and unclear imagination, not to mention confused and unrealistic..

Everything he thought had nothing realistic or rational or human about it, but was just a lot of jealousy, almost possessive.

Possessive towards a man she could never have and it wasn't right, he wasn't human..

Who knows how everything would have developed?!