Tangled hearts | Fool for his bitterness 2

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I finally found a 80s coded white adidas top, some black ripped jeans and a lot of silver jewelry to wear.
We're already on the way to the party and Damien allowed me to AirPlay music on his radio with my phone, I start playing Young Dumb & Broke and just sing along to it.
I yell ever word of it and dance to the beats while Damien just glances at me with his beautiful green shimmering eyes, "Don't tell me you don't know Young Dumb and Broke by Khalid??" I ask after a moment and he just shakes his head "No, never heard of it" I gasp jokingly "That's a crime!" He laughs but cuts our conversation with "We're here."
I smile at him and get out of the black Mercedes. We walk together towards the already pretty impactful party and go inside.

Everywhere are people with red or blue cups in their hands and loud trendy music is blasting through thousands of different speakers, Damien taps my shoulder "Do you want a drink?" I nod and he leaves me standing in the middle of the room, here must be hundreds of people, i barely recognize any though.
But who I do recognize is Avery, she stands at the DJ desk and tries to flirt with him, the guy doesn't seems to be as interested as she seems to be though.
"Omg Avery! It's been ages!" I yell against the music and walk towards the girl, as she turns around Ave's dark curly hair flies through the air, her expression is rather excited and she runs towards me, we both hug each other tightly "Oh my god, it's really been ages!" Avery says and breaks up the hug, "Girl, where the hell have you been?!" She adds and I turn away my gaze, "Well.. it's been a tough past two years I guess" I try to make it sound joyful but the pain in my voice is not overplay able.
Ave looks pitiful although me and squeezes my shoulders softly, "Oh.. yeah right, I've heard about that whole Josh Atwood drama, and I'm so so sorry for you and the fisher brothers what happened to Susann.. she was an amazing soul." Avery wipes away a strain of hair that has fallen in my face and smiles at me warmly, she then suddenly focuses on something in the background "And whines this boy that is just about to approach us?" She asks loudly and then continues to whisper "May this your new Jeremiah Fisher?" I laugh, I know she is trying to joke - I mean after all I never got the opportunity to tell her that Jere and I actually dated, all she knows is that I was kind of obsessed with him.
"Oh no, that's Damien, I met him on another party a few days ago and since then we started hanging out" Avery raises an eyebrow and smiles suspiciously at me,
"Well it's nice to meet you, Damien!"
He smiles gently at her and replies "I appreciate it, and I'm glade that I got to know you." She giggles softly and then winks at me as in 'go for it girl' so I nod in response and Avery turns away from us "We'll talk later again!" She says while approaching yet another guy.
Damien hands me one of these red cups and I ask "Is that beer?" The boy shakes his head and explains "Not quite, I assumed that you wouldn't be the type of girl that's into beer so I allowed myself to mix you a cocktail." Stunned I look at him "Oh wow, I - Wow" is all I'm capable of to express, this is one of the cutest things that have ever happened to me and Damien's silly smile doesn't stop my heart from melting, "You're the best" I say only seconds before leading Damien out side, there's a huge pool and everyone has surrounded around it, the girls are laying in the laps of the boy which are laying on some Garden loungers.
I spot a free one and take Damien towards it, we both lay down and start cuddling a bit.

His hands caress my body while I play with his beautiful blonde hair, I can hear his breath right next to my ear and goosebumps raise all over my skin, warmth spreads through my body and I decide to passionately kiss him, he softly bites my lip and a silent moan rushes over my lips, just as it get tensing between us two we, as always get interrupted "Are you serious..?" A familiar voice says, I'm praying for it not to be Jeremiah but as soon as I turn around the boy stands in front of me, his curls are flying around in the wind and his eyes seem to be a little glassy, I'm confused by what is even happening and before I can process any of it Damien builds himself up in front of Jeremiah.
At first Jere seems to be a bit overwhelmed by the situation but then builds himself up as well "Go and treat your new girlfriend terrible but Penelope is none of your business anymore." Damien confronts Jere and he directly counters "Shut up, Penny is independent enough to speak for herself" I have no idea if I should feel flattered or offended by his behavior but I know damn well that this right here is going to be imploded in a fight.
I get up, Damien then grabs Jeremiah by the collar for f his shirt, lifting him slightly "Oh c'mon, who even are you to tell her what to do. After all you cheated?" I can see the anger in Jeremiah's eyes and before they actually start to fight I break up the situation, and push Damien away from Jere, "Stop it. That's enough." I groan "come Damien, we'll go somewhere else." I begin to lead Damien away from Jeremiah but predictably Jere yells after us "Yeah that's right Penny, walk him like a dog." I can see the madness lighting up in Damien's face and only seconds after he frees himself from my grip, heading towards Jeremiah.
With clenched fists he reaches the other teenage boy and suddenly Damien punches Jeremiah across the face, causing the younger-ish boy to fall to ground.
The fear in his expression and body language cannot be overlooked.
Shocked I yell at "What the actual fuck?!" I run over to Jeremiah who is still sitting motionless on the floor and take care of his eye, "What the hell, Damien?!" His facial expression shifts from prideful to stunned, he doesn't seem to get why I'm mad but how can he not understand it? After all I am still not a fan of nonverbal actions, "Why are you so mad PJ?" He asks clueless, "Because you just fucking hit someone? He may be a fucking asshole but that doesn't excuse your behavior." I breathe out and sink my head "we can't change other people but after all we have the ability of claiming ourselves as humans with verbal communication skills. Use your fucking words instead of fists." I groan and turn to Jeremiah who is still sitting in front of me, when I tend to look at Damien again I notice that he's gone.
I didn't even hear him leave..
Where did he go?
Was I wrong for calling him out on that?
Shouldn't I have yelled?
Did I just scare away the guy who would set the world on fire for me..?

"Y'know.." the boy stutters while breathing deeply, "I never stopped loving you.." I gaze at Jere who is sitting on the bathtub while I clean up blood from his split lip.
"Why did you kiss her?" I pronoun with all my strength but he looks so saddened when I asked it, "she kissed me.." Jere says. His puppy eyes stare at me, looking tired and burnt out.
Have I all this time not listened to him? Did I ignore him on purpose? There ain't no way I self sabotaged yet another before so perfect relationship.
"Belly would never.." my voice cracks and my eyes get all teary and glassy, I'm on the edge of crying..
"Why didn't you say anything..? I-"
"Sometimes people tend to lose themselves in the negative things, I tried to talk it out but you pushed me away .. there was no chance of making you listen to me.."
A tear rolls down my face "Jere.."
He smiles hurtful "Don't worry Penny. I would give the world to you in a million lifetimes. You are the only girl that ever could make me happy.." he sobs "I sometimes hate myself when I think about how I treated you after mom's death.." tears are forming in his eyes as well now and he begins to fight the urge to cry "I was a god damn dick, but now I am here. I have changed for the better.. for you. I was at the summer house trying to find my inner peace" his hands begin to caress my face and for a short amount of time he presses his lips thoughtful against my forehead.
"I can't make you forgive me for my actions, understand me or make you love me again but I can wait for you."
And suddenly I feel myself breaking.
Tears stream down the cheeks of my face and out of nowhere he begins to hug me, he pulls me close to his upper body making sure I can feel his touch tightly. I just sob into his chest and try to push him away again "Let me go." I mourn, "I won't make that mistake a second time." Jere replies and pulls me even closer.
My mascara must be all over his shirt once again, and once again I feel completely lost.
Jere pulls me by the chin and makes me look up at him, silently he admires me and so do I glance at his features "I missed staring at your green eyes." I must smile and bury my yet with mascara ruined face in the palms of my hands, how can he after all be so nice? How the hell can I still feel the same about us?
Suddenly it shoots to my brain, what about Damien? I can't hurt him like this. I assured him that we would be more, we would have a chance to become something great.
He loves me, doesn't he?
I cannot be the girl that breaks his caring heart.
"Did you drink?" I ask, confused looks Jere at me. His voice is calm "Not really." Just as he wants to add another sentence to our pretty wordless conversation I continue "Did get here with your car?" He nods "Indeed" I jump up and lead Jeremy downstairs to the front yard where all the cars are parked, ok our way there everyone stares at us. Doing something on a teenage party is almost like a virus, within seconds it's everywhere. Every single person knows what you did or what happened. They are almost like a bunch of hyenas trying to catch you at your weakest only to tear you apart.
I hate teenagers on the top of my heart.

We're both sitting in the bright red jeep while driving along a quiet highway.
On both sides are big tall trees all closely spaced together, leaving no void.
The street is narrow and pretty dark, not even the spotlights of the vehicle have a big impact on this pitch darkness.
"Are you still scared of the dark?" Jeremiah asks amused, "Shut up mister scared of Clowns" his smile fades and he begins to play serious "Okay but Clowns are actually valid, after all this Horror-Clown stuff back in 2016" I smile ironically and nod "Sure~"
Jere stutters playful "Next time I'll see a spider I will hold it into your face!" He then proceeds and laughs, I roll my eyes "No you don't." I try to act authentic but I can't hide my smile.
"I hate you!"
I then finally pronoun with a giant smile on my face and begin to giggle.