She stared at me hard and stepped to the side. Walkin to go inside, she semi-closed the door on me Only for 30 minutes Swae , thats it. And with that she walked upstairs.
Finally entering the house, I walked the same direction she did. Hmm for her to be doing this solo shit, she can hold her own. Kj started to fuss in her arms while she tried to put him to sleep.
She sighed in frustration, 27 minutes , 3 minutes has past I said to myself.
Simone, I want you to kno' that I am truly sorry for real. I shouldve listened to you at the hospital while you were giving birth. Its just that I wasnt ready and I- but she cut me off
You werent ready ? Do you think I was ? How selfish do you sound, Swae ! I dont think you thought this through or anything you do , you dont think it all the way out. If you came to be in Kj's life , then cool just say it go ahead and get straight to it. There aint no way or beating around it, we can handle what needs to be handled. But what your not finna do is sit here and give me this pitty ass story like I havent tried to prevent this. She said.
Maybe we can Co-Parent ? I dont mind having him weekends ? I said trying to get this done soon. Its either now or never
Slightly chuckling she started to speak Swae have you even dealt with a child ? Do you even know what to do ? Folding her arms across her nice swollen chest made me remember every reason why she is my baby momma. Too early ? Oh well...
No but thats what I got you for ... please ? It would only help so you can start trusting me. I said following her out Kj's room to hers.
Tuhh, its gonna be a while before I trust you. But I guess I can. So when do you want to do this ? She said with a tired look.
Wellll .... I said in a high pitch voice I was plannin' on askin' you if it were okay if I stay witchu' . You kno' for a while until I get the hang of everything ... Scratchin' the back of my head, I hoped she'll let me.
No. She said Please, Ill sleep on the couch, floor, counter, in Kj's crib- I exclaimed
You can sleep on the couch, Ill throw you some blankets and shit. Now get out! She said giving me some pillows.
Step one, check. Now getting the hang of this daddy thing is another story..
Following Morning
Hearing someone walk down the steps I knew it was Simone , so I still played sleep. I peeked my eyes open to see her bent over putting Kj in his baby rocker.
She walked over towards me so I quickly closed my eyes so she wont kno' Im up.
Swae... Wake up I need your help... She said shaking me.
Yeah yeah , Im up . Wassup ? I asked in my sleepy voice, Im hungry and I need you to rock Kj and feed him She said as she walked towards him.
Aight, lemme go to the bathroom.... Matter fact where is it ? I said standing up.
Before she responded she picked up Kj, and this is the first time I actually saw his face without any interruption.
