butterflies ʚɞ minsung

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chan rushed to be by jisung's side as he saw him curled up in his bed, silently crying to himself. "w-what are you doing h-here? you sh-should be a-asleep," jisung said as he turned to his side and faced chan.

"let's try to calm you down first, yeah?" chan said as jisung nodded.

chan motioned jisung to sit up. he wrapped his arms around the younger, slowly rocking him from side to side.

"ji, i know you were having a panic attack. i heard you breathing heavily. are you okay?" chan questioned him as he noticed jisung stop shaking.

"yes. i'm fine." he turns around to face chan, softly smiling.

but chan knew that his smile was fake. he knew that jisung was going through a lot.

"c'mere, ji." chan engulfed jisung in a warm, big hug.

"how do you always know everything? i'm so sorry i always cause you trouble." he started shaking a bit, overwhelmed with emotions and thoughts crowding him.

"you don't cause any trouble, you never have. i care for you ji. i know you always try your best at everything, even if you think you're not good enough." he patted jisung's back, soothing him.

"chan, can i ask you something?" jisung asked after a moment of comforting silence. "of course. you can ask me anything, yeah?" chan smiled at him.

"why are you friends with me? i mean, i just ruin everything. i always make you worry." jisung meant to ask him this since quite a few days now.

"you make me genuinely happy. i never have to be fake around you, or hide my emotions at all. you make me comfortable and wanted. who told you that you're no good? that new guy you've been texting?" chan questioned.

"nono. he's actually really kind. wait. how do you-" jisung tries to say, but gets cut off by chan. "how i know about him is not the point."

"then what is?" jisung asks.

"who told you that you're no good and you always cause trouble?" chan replies, his voice soft but stern.

"my mind did. you know how you always say 'believe in yourself'?" he tried to lighten up the atmosphere by joking. and miserably failed.

"ji, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself," chan sighed.

"it's what i deserve. i'm not good enough for 3racha. everyone has high expectations from me, what if i disappoint them?" jisung said as his lip stars quivering.

"you're not disappointing anyone, okay? everyone loves and cares for you. please don't be so hard on yourself." chan reassures him.

"you're the best friend ever, you know that?" jisung looks at chan with stars in his eyes.

"you're the best person i could've asked for to be my platonic soulmate," chan said, placing a kiss on his forehead.

"i feel like binne's third wheeling us here," jisung giggled. "where is he anyways?" jisung questions a while later.

"probably eating felix's face," chan laughs.

"and his a- never mind." jisung chuckles. " you see? you make me forget about my worries," jisung exclaimed.

"that's what i'm here for."

"so, i've been having those nightmares again. they're horrible," jisung began.

"do you wanna tell me about it?" chan softly asks.

"if you want to hear me rant. but it's okay, i talked to minho about it, turns out he was awake already. but i'll tell you if you wanna know." jisung said.