She would be heart broken
she would ask "why?"
She wouldn't understand all of my thoughts that are unspoken
she wouldn't recognize me anymore
She'd tell me l've changed but not for the better
she'd be disappointed
she'd wonder why school is so hard now
she'd see the light in my eyes become a bit dimmer and that they are now tired and pink
She'd be angry
She'd ask why I decided to throw my life away and l'd say "I'm trying my best" but she wouldn't understand
Little me doesn't understand my life yet
She's innocent
She has a bright future ahead of her that will seem to grow dimmer
She has goals and expectations of herself that will not be met
One day she will stop coming home to tell her parents about her day One day she will stop coming home to tell her parents about her day
One day she will stop coming home to a dinner her dad made
She will stop hearing "I love you" every day
She would find her mental health deteriorating
she will slowly lose her self worth
Then she will understand
